My life story

The message

The door is close to me

I keep banging and banging
I know I'm heard

The knocks echo so
But it just stays shut
Won't budge can't get past the wall

My tears of anger fall down

But I must not
Shall not give in

My voices needs to be heard for those though the door

My truth must be founded out by those in need
I know that I can't be savior but I have truth that needs to be known

Let the message out
Needs to be rung out
To ring the message true

But how can I let them know?
How to make them listen

To get in I must give up
Something that I do lack
This is the riddle that keeps me chained
I have no tokens left to give
All my gifts take far away from me

This has always been my doom from the start
Only thing left to do is pray
While I keep knocking hard on the door
Please let me in

If only I could crease to be
Give into my faith
Seal it in place

Just like Sisyphus I'm pushing against a boulder only to have it fall back at the start
With not a one to open these doors
I'm stuck

Sink to my knees
Grovel if I must

Pound and pound

Push against my might
When suddenly the door slightly gives
And light peeks through
Shining all around me

Tear stain on my face
With one foot in the doorway
Found the Gateway

And suddenly I'm finally in and I can say to them

"Finally, I'm here."