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Gabriel

It's been days since Kei had recovered, pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin nawawala sa isip niya ang itsura ng dagat na pinuntahan namin.

Everytime that we're here, laging ang ganda ng ngiti niya, lagi siyang naglalaro sa mga alon. And everytime that we're here, he always tells me that he wanted us to live here.

He was playing with the water and I was sitting behind him, admiring him. He got tired and stopped jumping around. Naglakad siya papalapit saakin at umupo sa tabi ko.

Isinandal niya ang ulo niya sa balikat ko at huminga ng malalim. I could feel my heart beating so fast... God please let me have him all to myself...

"I never get to experience this before... Laging ayaw nila, ni Kuya Cj, ni Aeron, nila lola pati ni ate. Si lola and si ate lagi nilang sinasabi na may tiwala naman daw sila saakin pero hindi sila napayag kahit na kasama ko sila..." He said. Habang nakatingin pa rin sa dagat na nasa harapan namin.

"Pero when you came, nagiba yung panananaw nila, They never said no to you, thank you." He said making me flustered.

"Kei? I have something to tell you." I said out of nowhere. Umayos siya ng upo at muling ibinalik saakin ang atensyon. I looked at his pretty face before taking a deep breath.

Flashback

"I don't know, every single thing he does, it makes me feel so calm and happy, kahit pa pangaasar sa mga kaibigan niya..." I said. As they were all listening.

"You like him?" Xan asked me. I looked at him ang refused to answer. Hindi ko alam, do I like him? Or I just like the way we are? The way I treat him and the way he treats me?

"I... Hindi ko alam." Matipid na sagot ko. We all became so quiet. Xan took his beer bago ito inumin, I did the same para hindi masyadong awkward.

"You like him, ganiyan din si CJ kay Miko noon." Rhyden answered. Napalingon naman ako sakanilang tatlo.

"Yes, ganyan yun dati, even si Xan he's also the biggest bitch to us pero nagpapababy pala sa mas baby pa sakanya." Miko added. Napangiti naman ako dahil doon sa sinabi niya.

"Gago ka, Miko. Pero oo totoo naman, but that's not the point. The point is, you like him. And you should go and tell him, bago ka pa maunahan." Xan answered. Mas lalong lumakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko dahilan para maubos ko ang beer na hawak hawak ko.

"Isn't it a little to early for me to express how I really feel? Tska paano kung hindi pala niya ako gusto?" Sagot ko. Sakanila ko lang nakakayang ilabas tong ganitong side ko. I trust them all enough, hindi nila ako bibiguin.

"If he doesn't like you, well... You have nothing to do with it... It's his feelings and his life, wala ka namang magagawa kung ganon ang nararamdaman niya sayo eh, at kung hanggang kaibigan ka lang talaga niya... It'll be hard but if he rejects you, you'll be broken at first then suddenly you'll stand up and will move forward." Miko answered and the both of them agreed with what he said.

I remained silent. If he rejects me that means I would wake up everyday without the feeling of being inlove. Gigising nanaman akong kinu- question ang mundo kung bakit ba ako nandito? How? I don't know how to live without seeing his smiles, hindi ko na alam kung paano at kung ano ang gagawin ko kung mawala pati siya.