NANDI
We've been in Phuket for a week now. The plan was to explore as much as we can, see as many things as we can and try as many dishes that we can but we've spent a lot lot of time indoors, on the bed, naked... And I wouldn't change any of it.
We still have a week to go and maybe we can use that to spend more time outdoors but for now, I'm enjoying being cuddled up next to my husband before he becomes our husband.
I know he met her, I might not know who it is but I know she was revealed to him. Like I said, I know Bangizwe. I was able to read the change in his mood and I confirmed it by looking at his eyes. He tried so hard to conceal it but one can only get so far with hiding what we both knew was inevitable.
Since we've been here, he hasn't said a word about her and I haven't dared to ask. I figured he wants to make this period about just us and I appreciate it because I want that too. I want it to be just us for a little longer.
It's morning time and we're still in bed, I've been awake for some time now and getting lost in my own thoughts. I play with the ring on my finger, twisting it around while I think about our future. I've never doubted that he loves me, even when he sat me down months after dating and told me about his fate, his arranged wife. It hurt me, it really did and when I told my sister the first thing she said was 'You need to leave that man, it won't end well'
I obviously didn't listen and now we are here and I still want no one else if it's not him. I have no idea how I'm going to adjust to this and it's starting to feel like the reality of it all is hitting me now that I know for a fact that she exists. There's no more wishful thinking, it was all true from the beginning.
Bangizwe promised to never lie to me, he told me everything and not once did he force me to stay, but could say that he played a huge role in getting me to stay because instead of pulling away after he told me about his pending wife, he loved me harder. He wrapped me warmly in his love so much that I didn't want to step outside of it.
"What are you thinking about so early in the morning?" He asks in his morning lazy voice and I turn to face him.
"You're up,"
"I am," he pulls me close to him and pecks my lips "What's going in in that pretty head of yours?"he doesn't let it go.
"I'm just thinking about us and our future," he quickly understands what I'm referring to but his facial expression doesn't change. He remains calm.
"I'd say our future looks very bright, I see us remaining in love, blessed with five kids, four boys and a girl. I see us starting our own business, a legacy for our kids, we will be very happy and rich, we'll take more trips like this and most importantly, I see us standing together and loving each other until the very end, "
" Why four boys, " I'm not even going to touch on the five kids, I'm not birthing five kids.
" Boys are a lot easier to handle, the one girl is so we can have a mini you otherwise I'd say five boys, "
" We're not having five kids, nope, not happening,"
" Whatever the number, even if it's ten it's okay," he says and I laugh at the fact that he's increasing the number instead of decreasing it.
" You have this all figured out, don't you? "I turn all serious again, I don't mean to be a kill joy, I just know I can't hide my fears from him.
" I don't. I just know that I'll do whatever I can to keep my promises to you. Nothing about how I feel about you has changed. I still love you, I still respect you and I still want you as my wife. You're still my love, MaKhumalo, that's never going to change. "
