Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 6

                  Nathaniel

Later on after dinner, my parents confront me in my bedroom , alone .

" What were you thinking Nathan?" My mother cries out, staring at me with so much despair .

Well, I might have started a fight with some guy at my university, it was a huge fight. It attracted a lot of media attention and the police. We were fighting over the fact that he was refusing to sell me weed. Yeah, I know. A dumb thing to fight over. And I hate that with every dumb thing I do, my mother is the one to suffer the most  because she loves me more than anything in the world.

" I saw this coming Lara Jean . I'm sorry but this, I can't use all my money on such a thing!" James is quick to add, leaning against the doorway .

He's giving me deadly glares occasionally when my mother is not looking, at first that used to scare but now I'm like 'fuck it', this is not about him. Who cares about his money? I know I don't .

" I'm sorry mom. I promise that I will do better ." I turn to my mom with sorrowful eyes, knowing full well that I have told her these words a thousand times and she must be tired of hearing me say them.

" Yeah, typical words from a brat like you ." James spits out. My mother sobs even harder  . I give James the middle finger while my mother is not looking . He just snorts then turns to my mother . He manages to convince my mother to come to bed while ignoring me .

" Mom.." I start but she just takes a few steps toward the door and shakes her head . " I don't know what I'm doing wrong , I just don't . "

" Nothing mom, you're doing nothing wrong .. it's just me ." I'm a mess, I have so much anger inside . I want to say but clamp my mouth shut.

" I need to go to bed." She just gives me one painful look and walks out of my bedroom, still crying silently.

I wish I could leave this place forever but I have nowhere to go. This is my only home .

I try to distract myself from feeling like shit by punching every other thing in my bedroom but it doesn't help, at the end of the day, only one thing can do that and that's sex. Just pounding into someone mercilessly can somehow make me feel better about myself .

After a brief shower, I throw on a pair of shorts with no shirt and walk towards the only bedroom that has something I need. I'm quick to knock on the door, and a few moments later, Lucas opens the door with a confused face .

" Hey i-" I shut his mouth with a kiss, pushing him inside as I slam the door behind me using my foot .  I feel like every ounce of me melts , just feeling him up , just being close to him helps me forget for a while .

He pulls away and starts shoving me away but he knows better than to do that. " Hey! Just stop ." He places his hands on my abs, making me more excited to get this over with.

I grab hold of his hands and kiss down his neck " Stop what?" I nibble over the fading hickeys, wanting them to be more visible.

" Just stop Nathan, please !." He pleads and this time I sense that he's upset .

" What's wrong ? " I pull away, looking at him , worried that I must have done something to upset him. I'm not one to force anything on other people, not exactly my type of thing .

He steps away from me, I finally notice he has a tight hold of a towel around his waist .  How can someone be this hairless and still be a guy? I wonder, nevertheless I like it and I want my tongue all over that body now .

" I can't do this. " Lucas mumbles, pointing between us .

" Do what? Have sex with me?"

" Yes!"

" Why not? I thought we had a good time last night baby ." I try to reach for his hand but he steps back .

" We did but it just ended there . I'm not that kind of a person especially tonight ."

" What changed? I mean, I'm sorry about what I said this morning if it makes you feel better ."

" It's not about that . It's just...I don't want to have sex with anyone but the person who truly loves me ." Lucas states, this time glaring at me .

" Okay okay, I love you . Can we continue now?" I offer, but Lucas just steps back even further, making me feel more frustrated .

" Doesn't work like that . Now get out of my bedroom." He points at the door with a shaky hand . Seriously? Who is he fooling? .

" If you dare come anywhere near me I will scream Nathan, I swear ." He says when I try walking towards him.

I sigh in annoyance" Then let's just have sex and get it over with Lucas. I know you want this, why pretend like you don't?"

" Just leave." He whispers weakly, looking like he might cry any moment, I raise my hands in surrender and leave his bedroom . So much for having a hot stepbrother . .

Maybe I should have gone to Wylder's apartment. If he was here, he could have driven me to a party and I wouldn't be feeling this way about my life . This miserable .

A soft knock on the door a few minutes later makes me jump back on my feet and open it without thinking twice .

" So do you wanna do it?" I ask Lucas, who's standing on the other side of the doorway, now wearing his pyjamas.

He simply walks in, I softly close the door behind me and turn to him. His face looks puffy like he was crying.

" No , I just wanted to apologize . I feel like I over reacted earlier on. I hope I didn't hurt your feelings" he looks so sincere but unfortunately I don't care much about that .

" You know, it will make me feel better if you just allow me to fuck you?" I suggest .

" That will just make me feel more worse about myself ." He murmurs, avoiding any kind of eye contact from me.

" I promise that this time it will be different .I promise " I pull him into my arms, smirking when he doesn't fight it. I know he wouldn't resist me, any fool knows better than to say no to me.

" I appreciate the offer but I'm fine " He draws back from my embrace.

I internally grunt in annoyance . I have never been this desperate to get laid and this willing to beg or even reason my way into someone's pants , this patient.

" It's not like you haven't done this with other guys. Why should I be the exception? it's just sex Lucas, sex man . We don't have to act like-"

" Actually, I haven't . You took my virginity, you were my first!" He cries out , looking at me with so much hurt .

I close and open my mouth, trying to come up with something but words fail me completely.  I don't know what to do or say .

Lucas just shakes his head, then runs out of my bedroom. Slamming the door behind with so much force that I'm sure the whole house heard. All I can do is run my hand through my messy hair, as much as I love fucking up other people's lives . I didn't expect that Lucas would be part of the list . And something inside me feels like I have to apologize, like I have done something so wrong by robbing Lucas out of his best first sex .

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