Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 35

Nathaniel

The days that follow are filled with me working my ass off so I could get an off day on Tobi's 6th birthday. Each year, Summer always hosted his birthday parties but since she's expecting, Wylder offered to help me plan one . Lucas is too sick to even do anything these days.

" Nathan!" Lucas calls out the minute I slam the door behind me . Entering the warm silent home .

" Yeah?" I yell back, placing my laptop back on the couch and running up the stairs to his bedroom.

The day has been pretty hectic. I didn't have time for myself. I did all the work James required me to do without complaints . Now all it's left for me to do is finish the draft of the business presentation for Friday then I will be all good . If I submit that, I will have a few weeks off for my family .

I find Lucas sitting on his neatly made bed with his head in his hands . I quietly take a seat by him . And place my hand over his back .

" Are you okay?" I whisper. His tense up the minute I rub his back. Not a good start .

" I don't know...I think.." He sighs heavily " I think I might be pregnant."

My hand stops halfway through a stroke on the back, and somehow it starts to feel cold . It's like being splashed with cold water , and for a minute, it's hard to get out of the shock. I don't even know how to feel .

" Did you go to the doctor to confirm?" I press my lips together in a tight thin line . Lucas simply shakes his head no. " Then maybe you should . " I mumble .

A part of me does wish we could have a second baby, another one knows that Lucas is not ready for another rollercoaster of body changes, mood swings and hard kicks . It's his body he has to sacrifice after all , not mine .

" I can feel it, you know. That's why I'm so afraid to check . " He finally sits up and glances at me with tears in his eyes " I'm not ready for this .. I'm just not ready Nathan and I told you so many times !" He sobs out . I can sense that he's blaming me for this, nevertheless I try not to focus on that .

" Hey, if you are pregnant, we will get through this together, okay? " I place my hands on both of his warm wet cheeks . He slowly starts shaking his head.

" No, we won't. I did almost everything by myself while I was pregnant with Tobias , even after ....I can't go through this again ." He whispers weakly. I nod in understanding. Although I know that he couldn't be pregnant. I made sure of that .

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After dropping by the doctor's office, we find out that Lucas is not really pregnant. Just a mere reaction to the amount of alcohol he drank at the party . Nothing to worry about . The relief on his face was enough evidence to show me that Lucas doesn't want another child with me . Somehow that hurt me more than anything .

" I guess now you can relax." I say to Lucas who's slowly licking his ice cream while looking at anywhere but me .

" Yeah ." He whispers . Shifting slightly . Tobias on the other side is enjoying his ice cream while messing up his shirt .

We sit in silence for a while . I can sense that Lucas doesn't want to talk to me , so I settle on talking to Tobias instead .

" Are you all done?" I look over Tobias . His mouth is filled with chocolate ice cream and he keeps trying to wipe it off with the back of his hand, making more mess .

" Yeah but it doesn't come off!" Tobias sighs in frustration. I'm about to help him when Lucas beats me to it .

" Let's go fix you up in the bathroom then." He picks up Tobias, placing him by his hip and throws the small bag we carry for Tobias over his shoulder .