Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 25

                    Wylder

" You know , he fucking ...he fucking makes everything about him . It's like .  I don't have a say in everything!" Nathan say to me with a scowl

We are in a bar he invited me over , I didn't want to come, of course . I was enjoying my time with Joshua, however I know that if I decided to stay home . He would be making the worst choices, add to the fact that he's already drunk .

" It's Joshua ..I know, he's influencing him ."He adds, I  just nod at him . I mean, who am I to argue against that? Joshua might be the influence, but he's the best influence in Lucas's life.

I don't exactly know what's going on between Nathan and Lucas, but by the looks of it and what I heard from Joshua, Nathan and Lucas are fighting over everything, it's a problem over another every single day.

" Never ever have a child with ... someone like Lucas!" Slurs his words . Nathan gulps down another shot of vodka.

I try stopping him but it's pointless. The only thing I can allow him to do is drink it all out, allow him to crash at my place tonight and hope tomorrow he talks it out with Lucas .

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                        Lucas

Later on while putting Tobias to bed, I receive a hard urgent knock from the front door.  I can only cringe when the sound makes Tobias stir in his sleep, but he eventually settles , making my heart rate slow down a bit .

It took me 2 hours to get him to sleep. If he wakes up now, I'm definitely screwed . I tiptoe my way out of the nursery, shutting the door behind me . Sighing heavily when no sound comes from the nursery .

' I hope it lasts!' I say internally . Walking my way downstairs . Tobias has taken this likeness of not sleeping these days, it's aggregating . Sometimes he either sleeps for a few minutes or 1 hour maximum during the night . The only time he thinks it's a perfect time to sleep is during the day, while I have school.

" Lucas!" Nathan yells out my name the minute I open the door, his form stumbling inside the house .

" Lucas ." Wylder greets behind Nathan. " Sorry I had to bring him here ." Wylder adds when I just gape at the drunk Nathan in front of me

" It's ... it's okay" i mumble, making a way for Nathan to pass through . Standing his way might result in him falling on top of me for sure .

"Don't say that, it's not okay and that's okay too . Nathan has been a mess , I'm aware.  And I feel bad that i-"

" Wylder, please " I look over him " I just can't, not right now . I appreciate your concern but I just ca-"

Suddenly,Wylder pulls me in his arms in a second, taking my breath away. At first, the feeling of his hands on my upper back and my head over his warm chest feels weird. We have never been this close, i awkwardly pat his back in return. Unsure of what to do or say .

" I know things have been hard but I feel like you need this" Wylder whispers softly .

My breath hitches and I finally realise how much I have been holding back . I feel the world is on standstill.Nathan's mumblings in the background, or the sound of crickets chirping, even the few cars passing the house . It's like the whole world disappears, and somehow my body melts in Wylder's embrace . I never knew I needed this hug until now .

After a few minutes, I pull away. Wiping my tears " Thanks.." I clear my throat. The lump on my throat seemingly hard to get rid of.

" It's cool, let me get him to bed?" Wylder says, without waiting for my reply. He enters the house, taking Nathan by the waist and leading him upstairs.

I stand there for a while , wondering what just happened. A mere hug made me cry this hard? On top of that, from Wylder? Before I could dwell much on the thought. I hear a loud 'thud', followed by a shrill cry of Tobias . Isn't that great?

I run upstairs to find Wylder standing by the nursery, holding Tobias in his arms . " Sorry, Nathan might have fallen and ..you know" He hands me Tobias with an apologetic look .

" I will take care of it, thanks and goodnight" I walk inside the nursery. Rocking Tobias in my arms .

I don't know how long Wylder stands there behind me but when he eventually leaves, i get back to getting Tobias to sleep . Only this time, it takes me forever.

" Come on baby" I cry out when he refuses the bottle once again . I have tried multiple times to even sing him to sleep or give him his pacifier. Nothing helps.

I sigh heavily, taking a seat on the rocking chair " Tobias, sleep please. " I plead with him . Even though he can't hear me, that's the only sane thing I can think of.

He just squirms in my arms in return, screaming even louder. By the looks of it, it's just me and him. Nathan has now settled down, probably deep in sleep after he woke up the baby. I don't know how I should feel about this. It's hard to even think when a baby is screaming on top of his lungs in your arms. All I can think about is how I'm gonna function tomorrow, it seems like I will not be sleeping until God knows when.

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