Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 39

Nathaniel

Coming home after a very long day to your two favourite people is the best feeling ever . Even when I enter the house, I can feel that this is where I belong. My safe Heaven . And my heart melts even more when Tobias runs in my arms .

" Hey buddy!" I bounced him a little in my arms . He lets out a loud adorable giggle. " How are you today?"

" Good, daddy gave me cake for dessert!" He says happily .

" I hope you left some for me!" I nuzzle over his neck . He giggles even more, screaming that it tickles .

" Tobias!" Lucas calls out from upstairs . Interrupting our little moment .

" Bedtime " Tobias mumbles . I also nod in disappointment . I don't really want the moment to end but I don't want to mess up his bedtime routine either .

" Goodnight bud!" I attack his face with kisses then place him on the floor. He hugs me one more time over my leg then skips off to bed .

Sighing softly, I also go upstairs to change. Tucking Tobias in on my downstairs once I'm done changing into my pyjamas. I arrive in the kitchen to find Lucas packing up the leftovers in the fridge .

" Your food is in the microwave ." He states effortlessly without looking my way .

" Thanks." I heat up my food . My stomach churns a little at the thought of food filling it up .

Last night's heated conversation has resulted in us not saying much to each other. I understand his silence. Yes, I might have gone way overboard with the conversation but I need to know . If he's worth fighting for or I'm just wasting my time like I did with Axel . I need to know if my presence matter to him or not . I have fought for so many people in the past that didn't deserve even a minute of my life on earth.

Once the microwave dings , I get off from my leaning position from the kitchen counter, brushing past Lucas but immediately when he turns the other way to grab one last container off the counter, I spot some kind of a very deep abrasion on his face .

I don't ask questions, because I already know he will give me a cold shoulder. Instead I stand in front of him . At first he looks at me blankly but once he realises what I'm really staring at . He tries to step back but I don't allow him . I pin him between me and the kitchen counter, tilting his chin a little to the side to get a better look on his face . I delicately run my thumb over the fresh scratch, Lucas wincing a little.

My jaw clenches at the sight" Who did this to you?" I demand . Looking at him dead in the eyes . " Lucas" I urge when his eyes drop to my chest .

" It's just a scratch . Nothing seri--"

" Lucas ." I make him look at me . " Don't lie to me ." I say through gritted teeth . I'm not dumb. Someone did this to him .

" It's just that ...you know, Axel came over here . Threatening our child's life . Saying that if I don't stay in my line, he will kill Tobias. I tried closing the door on him, he pushed it opened . I don't know... he's too strong " He laughs anxiously, still avoiding eye contact " He ...well...he scratched my face . Then Tobias came to my rescue, but I didn't allow Axel anywhere near him . I stood my ground then he left ...no big deal, you see?"

" That piece of shit!" I mutter angrily. I'm already planning a thousand ways to make him disappear . How dare he come into my house and threaten my family? My child's life? He has gone too far . I can't allow him to ruin this one good thing in my life . I can't!

" Hey, we are okay . He didn't hurt us ." Lucas whispers . His warm hands covering my cheeks . Something about the gesture calms my nerves down a bit.

" He hurt you ." I mutter . God knows what I will do to Axel once I get my hands on him . He has gone too far .

" It's just a scratch. I'm okay ." His eyes bores into mine . For a brief moment, I see something in them . Something that I have prayed so long to see but whatever it is, it is quickly replaced by something else. Like it wasn't even there .

" I still need to talk to him about this ." I step back . His hands fall to his side . A part of me wish I didn't step back but another one knows that, allowing myself to fall for him even more won't help my case at all .

" I thought about what you said last night ." Lucas folds his arms and lean against the counter .

I nod his way to continue. Taking out my food and grabbing a fork on my way to the dining table across the room . Lucas glances down at his feet for a very long time, I'm starting to think that he's sleeping or something until he slouches his shoulders with a sigh.

" I don't want to hurt you ." He eventually murmurs. His eyes still on the ground.

" I don't care. " I tell him honestly.And I don't.

" I'm not perfect."

" No one is perfect."

" I'm a mess, so insecure. I'm full of so much childhood trauma. I'm broken ."

" I will love you either way. "

" But that's the problem Nathan, what if you get tired of dealing with me? I know that you love me , but to what extent? Until when? "

" Until I die. That's how much I love you . If there's any after life, I will love you in it too . I don't care how imperfect you, messy or broken you feel , I love you with all your flaws because that's what made you who you are today. "

" I'm just scared . I can't, I can't be with you . " He whispers. " It's best if we separate, this time, for good ." Before I could say anything more, he walks out of the kitchen.

I just sit there, a part of me has so many questions on why he chose to walk out on me but another one knows that this is not about me. It's about Lucas and his battles inside him. Something I can't fight for him. Only he can. All I can do is be patient and hope that he comes back to me

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