Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 49

LUCAS

" Well, this is it I guess ." I sigh anxiously . Looking at myself over, turning a little .

I'm wearing a narrow-striped button-up and a pair of beige chinos with a pair of black leather boots.

" You look so gorgeous Lucas!" Summer coos through the phone . Joshua humming in agreement.i just smile sheepishly . I don't know why but I feel like if the compliment came from Nathan himself, it would make me less insecure about how I look .

We did a video chat . Joshua, Summer and I so they could help me get ready . At first, I thought I was capable of doing it on my own then suddenly I wasn't, because it was so hard to even choose what colour of shirt to wear .

" Just don't... have sex." Joshua voices out when I pick up the cellphone from my bed .

" Geez Josh, Let Lucas do whatever he wants . " Summer mutters, turning his eyes on me " You do whatever you want . You are an adult. If you find yourself unable to keep your hands off Nathan so be it. You can't always be scared of getting close to him because you might get pregnant . You have so many options, including the morning after pill ."

" I don't think it will work for Lucas ." Joshua adds . I just sit on the bed, listening to the two arguing about what works and doesn't work for me . I drone out a little . My mind drifting off to today's events.

I didn't do much except stress over tonight's date. As for Nathan, he didn't even look nervous at all . He seemed like the old Nathan to me. He went to work, came back later with Wylder , who offered to babysit . Am I making a big deal out of tonight? And on top of that, Nathan said that what we are going to do tonight is a surprise. So I must dress up casually . I don't know if I overdid it or not . I will just have to see .

" --- Fucking hell Josh, do you even know shit about pregnancy?" Summer scoffs after Joshua says I'm too special to use cheap things like after pills . Oh God! I'm a nervous wreck so these two aren't helping even one bit

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" I'm just gonna go now...." I trail off . Joshua and Summer try to plead with me to not hang up , promising that they will shut up .

" I have to go down in 5 minutes anyways ." I point it out to them .

" We just want to give you some advice ." Joshua hovers over the camera . Summer rolls her eyes at him but listens nevertheless" Have fun . Don't have se--"

" Joshua!" I interrupt him . " You have already told me that over and over again . Do you think I would be foolish enough to just have sex on the first date?"

" This is Nathan we are talking about!" Joshua grumbles . Summer just snorts at that . " Got anything better to say, Summer?"

" Oh me? Nothing . Nothing at all . You know better Josh but I do have one question though . Why are you so obsessed with Lucas's sex life? "

" Because....I care about him and last time he got pregnant, he almost co--"

" Okay . It's time to go!" I quickly hang up before the two could protest .

Me : What the fuck Josh?"

I text Josh immediately .

Josh : What? Summer wouldn't have made a big deal out of it . It's normal to be suicidal while pregnant .

Me: You promised we will keep that between us . It's part of the past and it should stay that way.

I don't bother waiting for his reply . We have been over this conversation more often than I would like to admit. I hate that he thinks that just because I confided in him about this. He thinks he can be so obvious about it . I'm starting to regret running to him at my worst stage of my life while I was pregnant .

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" Hi" i wave timidly at Nathan who is leaning by the car with a small smile on his face.

" Hey" He straightened up . " You look really amazing." He says softly.

" Thank you" I answer . Shyly looking at the ground. " You too ." I add quickly .

" Thanks ..." He opens the passenger's door for me . I get it . Making myself comfortable as he shut the door for me.

I take small deep breaths, trying to calm my nerves. This is not a big deal. It's just a date. Nothing special about it . I keep saying over and over to myself. Hoping that my heart will slow down a bit and my thoughts would stop racing but nothing comes out of it .

Nathan climbs in the driver's seat . Turning on the heater as he pulls out of the driveway . " You like Taylor Swift?" He promptly asks once we get on the road .

" Uh-- yeah! She's okay ." I blunder out. I mean, I didn't listen to music while growing up. I discovered the beauty of it a few years back . I haven't really found artists I can regard as my favourite .

" Just okay?" Nathan glances over me. Scoffing a little at my reply .

" Yeah, I guess. " I shrug . He laughs softly. Turning on some song by Taylor Swift.

" You are hanging out with the wrong people. Music is life, you should definitely come to me if you wanna live a little." He says , increasing the volume .

" This is good!" I yell out . Nathan nods . His eyes focused on the road .

I find myself staring at him as the song begins to get more interesting . Whenever he looks my way, I avert my gaze . Smiling a little when I spot his red cheeks at the corner of my eye .

' This was the very first page
Not where the story line begins....'

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