Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 27

                     Lucas

Slamming the door behind me, I enter the eery silent house . I sigh and appreciate the silence for a moment. I know that once Tobias sees me, there's no getting back some alone time .

Today has been pretty bad. Not only did I cry in the boy's locker room until my face hurt, I also ran into Amari . I haven't seen her in ages. Of course, she wasn't that thrilled to see me . Her boyfriend has fed her lies about how people like us are such a disgrace. So she has stopped coming over or calling. I had no other choice but to accept her decision. I have a lot going on already .

" Oh hey ." Nathan's voice snaps me back to reality . I look over him at the bottom of the stairs .

" Hi" I smile at him sheepishly, looking at the joyful bundle in his hands . " Hey cutie!"I coo at Tobias . 

" Someone is happy to see you!" Nathan laughs at the whining Tobias in his hands .

" You think? " I laugh at Toby's raised arms, wanting me to take him in his arms .

Nathan gladly hands me the eager Toby " More like he can't wait to annoy me!" I pull away when Tobias tries to grab hold of my already long hair .

" We need to talk ." Nathan shoves his hands in his Jean pockets and motions for us to go to the kitchen.

I follow him, wondering what is there to talk about? I  clearly stated what I wanted. If he can't accept that, then I will have to take matters into my own hands . Yes, I love him but these days I have been wondering if he loves me too. The constant fights and pulling away isn't working for me . Being stressed about the well-being of Tobias and my school work is enough for me.

I join him in the small eating area at the corner of the kitchen. It's just a table with three chairs around it and a huge lightbulb above .

" Your mother is here ." Nathan folds his arms and leans against the chair .

" Okay?" I adjust Tobias on my lap as he plays with his stuffed elephant. His favourite toy amongst the ones we bought .

" I'm not comfortable with your mother living here Lucas . How can you?"

" She's my mother, she raised me . Why wouldn't I be comfortable with her around? "

" Did she though? " Nathan looks at me , not batting an eye . " I don't like her being here . So I would like you to turn her away, immediately!"

" Does this have to do with her past drug abuse?" I ask . Knowing the answer already.

" Of course Lucas . Some people never change! ." Nathan jabs the table, gritting his teeth .

" Yeah, just like you ." I mumble . Nathan shoots up, staring at me like I have slapped him on the face .

"' Are we doing this again?" He questions. I just look down at Tobias, watching as he slowly fell asleep on my lap with his stuffed elephant.

A part of me hates that things have to be this way, but another part of me knows that if I keep on letting Nathan do whatever he pleases, while I suffer is not something I'm gonna spent the rest of my life doing.

" I wish we didn't have to. We both know we are struggling Nathan . What's the point of staying in this kind of relationship?"

" I may mess up sometimes but I'm not the one who's insecure about my body, who pushes you away whenever you try to reach out-"

" Yeah, you just turned this into another sex fight . What does that have to do with me being insecure?" I scoff. So he's shifting the blame to me? Everything is always my fault these days.

" It's not about that! It's about you pushing me away in every aspect of your life and acting like I'm the reason everything is messed up . "

" I'm not the one who comes home drunk!" I spit out . The whole situation last night has rubbed me the wrong way , especially looking at the fact that I missed an important test because of him .

" That was only once Lucas, once!"Nathan mutters . " And I apologized for that. "Nathan pleads .

" An apology won't fix the fact that I would have to repeat a grade!"

" Who cares about that? You don't need school, you have me ."

" That's the problem Nathan. I have you but for how long? You can change on me any time and leave us!"

" I would never do that to you and Tobias. "

" I'm starting to have doubts " I utter . Which is true, his behaviour has started to deteriorate , putting me in another spot of wondering if Josh was right about Nathan.

Did I get myself into yet another dark pothole? Was choosing to share a home with Nathan a good idea? It's not like I had a choice. Mrs Kevens wants me nowhere near her or Elizabeth, even James stated that if I ever walk in his mansion, he will make sure that I don't live another day to see my son grow up . So I have no one ...no one except my mother. She's my only hope .

" Lucas" Nathan stands in front of me , grabbing my shoulders gently. " I want this to work, I really do . I know you also want it to work too. Just stop pushing me away, please. "

" No, I don't want this to work. Not anymore!" I shrug off his hands on my shoulders, then leave him standing there .

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" Yeah, I'm working on getting her back ." My mother explains .

We are currently cooking together, something we have never done as a son and mother . It's nice and , it was her idea . I couldn't exactly say no, after what I told her earlier about not being welcomed here . I can't really say anything against Nathan's wishes, this is his house even though he insisted that it wasn't about that . I know it is .

" Will they allow you?" I look over my mother, standing by the stove
Stirring the soup .

" I hope so . I hate that James and his good for nothing wife are keeping you away from Elizabeth. You two are brother and sister, you belong together!"

When she says that, my mind immediately goes back to the last time I saw Mrs. Kevens with Elizabeth. It was a few weeks right after giving birth. I accompanied Nathan to pick up a few of his stuff at the Kevens Mansion . Although I got kicked out right away when Mrs. Kevens  saw me waiting for Nathan in the living area, Elizabeth was with her . We hugged for a good amount of minutes before Mrs. Kevens separated us . I was forced to stay in the car for the rest of the waiting . However, it was worth it. Maybe my mother getting her back won't be that bad .

" So, will you give it to me?" I feel a nudge on my arm . I blink away the memories and look toward my mother beside me .

" Uh.. What?"

" Money, I need money so I can get a temporary place to stay while I look for a job . I can't really get my legal parental rights if I'm still living in the street and have no job."

" But ...I already gave you money ." I frown at the frozen smile on her face .

Last time I invited her over, right before I gave birth . We talked about my father, my biological father. She demanded money so she could tell me the truth about him. I gave her all my last cent, only for her to tell me that my father passed away .

" You know, a lot of stuff happened . "

" Like what? Are you using again?" I glare at her . I wouldn't be surprised but I would definitely be heart broken . We have come a long way for her to just go back to ruining her life .

Her brown eyes go a little wide " Lucas, honey, I would never! I'm a changed woman . I want my kids back and I want to see my grandson grow up. That drug stuff is all in the past!"

" I hope so ." I look down at her sweaty trembling hand on top of mind . Although that gives her away, a part of me is still in denial about her using drugs again . I need her . Maybe now that I'm a parent, I feel like I could learn a lot from her if I help her become sober .

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