Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 7

    
                     Nathaniel

The following day I tried talking to him after school but he entirely ignored my very existence. Even during dinner when I tried to include him in the conversation me and Joshua were having . It's like he has shut me down . Normally, I wouldn't care but I feel like I owe him an apology for acting like an ass .

Right after dinner, I call Wylder to drop by at my place because I just can't go another night tossing and turning on my bed, hoping to feel better about myself . I need to do something about this sexual tension building up inside me .

Later on though, he cancels last minute, promising to make it up to me . Ugh! Nothing seems to even go my way these days . Even the job hunt I have been doing isn't going well. I know that even James won't bother hiring me, he hates my guts too much .

I walk back to my bedroom, but I'm stopped dead by an argument between my mother and James, I decide to eavesdrop because who cares? It's not like they have huge skeletons in the closet.

" James, just do something before I do. Having him here is bad enough. "'

" I'm the only person he's got . He's mother wants nothing to do with him Lara Jean, you know that!"

" I won't have a child of a rapist in my house, do you hear me? We have children here for crying out loud . What if he turns out to be like he's good for nothing father?"

" I won't let that happen ." James says plainly but my mom just shakes her head in frustration and walks away .

Oh well, I didn't know the skeletons were that bad . So Lucas- is not James's son . That just makes things 10 times greater for me but I wonder how will Lucas take the news, by the looks of it, the two aren't planning on telling him any time soon. Should I do the honours? Maybe he will consider letting me fuck him .

I stroll my way to my bedroom, finding Josh already waiting for me .

" Joshua!" I nod my head towards him, taking a seat on the empty chair facing my bed .

" Hey!" Joshua waves back at me casually, like I don't know. Makes me look at him in curiosity .

" What's up?"

" I just ... I need to ask you something but it's not a big deal . Don't make a big deal about it, okay?"

" Okay?" I lean on the chair, folding my arms and looking at him as he nervously played with his hands on his lap .

He's sitting on the foot of my bed, wearing his usual grey pyjamas . Apparently grey is his favourite colour, like his eyes . Iconic? I know!.

" How did you know that you liked guys?" He glances over me.

" Hmhmm that's a very good question . " I brush my chin gently, pretending as if I'm thinking while I'm not, I enjoy seeing Joshua squirm under my watchful eyes . It's actually funny .

" Like you woke up one day and decided to go like -"

" I got you Josh, no need to say anything more ." I stop him . Knowing him, he might say something stupid that might just make this moment a lot more funnier  .

" Well, it comes naturally. It's like how you knew you liked the colour grey out of all colours ."

" Well, I had options, you see . I got to see all the colures before I chose grey, get it?"

" And I did the same , but it felt more right with guys than with women . Like I said, 'naturally'"

" Oh okay, got it ." Joshua nods, he seems to half understand what I'm saying but all in all, I think he will understand more once he falls for the right person, either be a guy or a girl .