Someone To Stay [bxb]

Chapter 29

                Nathaniel

I look through my cellphone then over the doorway of the  living room. It has been over 15 minutes since Lucas and Tobias left the room . I'm a bit worried.

" Just go check on them already " Wylder says, like he could read my clouded mind .

" You think?" I look at him . Instead he shoves me off the couch .

" And grab me a glass of water while you are at it Nathan!" Summer adds . I nod  towards her then ruffle Joshua's hair on my way out .

" Fucking hell Nathan, took me hours to look this good!" Joshua snaps , the rest of the guys just laugh at his frantic face .

I swiftly walk out of the room, straight to the kitchen. I stop abruptly by the door when I spot Lucas and Tobias laughing together. My heart swells up in happiness.

I lean by the door, watching my two favourite people in the world. They don't notice me yet, Lucas has his back on me while Tobias is busy looking at his dad's face with nothing but joy in his eyes. I never knew that children looked up to us until I had one of my own children . It's nuts how much they love us, it's like we are the whole world to them . And in turn, they are the whole world to us .

" Dad! " Tobias screams out my name the minute our eyes meet.

" Hey buddy!" A grin spreads out on my face, my insides instantly turning when Tobias giggles , calling me over . I gladly obey while Lucas leans on the kitchen counter, staring at Tobias . A glim in his eyes, reminding me of how he used to look at me like that, not anymore now. The light has darkened, replaced by something else I can't pinpoint .

" Look, daddy loves it!" Tobias points at the hand band on Lucas's wrist . I smile fondly at it . Tobias got to choose the colour of the band while I got to choose its writing on it .

" Thank you!" Lucas says, shyly stealing a few shy glances at me . Well, that's new but I'm loving it.

" It was no sweat, Tobias actually did all the hard work, didn't you?" I turn to Tobias who nods frantically .

" Already thanked him ten times" Lucas states, looking over Tobias who seems to be in his own little world as he plays with the band on Lucas's wrist .

" Who was counting?" I taunt . Already guessing the answer before he spits it out .

" Obviously me, he can't count!" Lucas playfully pokes Toby's hand " Can you count Tobias?"

Tobias, like the confident boy I'm raising puffs his chest and proudly says ; " Yes, I can count !" Then goes on to try to count to ten, messing up the order and not even knowing how to pronounce some words right .

The sight makes both Lucas and I laugh , moreover we even try to help whenever we can. Only if Tobias allows us to do so though . In most cases, whenever we try helping him , he always  comes up with a sassy answer like  ' I'm not a baby!' . Only if he knew that, no matter how many times he says that, at any age in his life, he will always be my baby baby . Mine and Lucas's little special boy .

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We arrive at the party around 8PM and it's already packed. Wylder and I separated from Josh and Lucas to find his little brother, who is in college and threw this party . He loves partying, a lot .

" Hey fuckhead!" Wylder yells over the loud music to his little . Who is standing by the bar with a few of his friends .

They instantly scatter when Wylder and I stand by Hunter . " What do you want?" Hunter rolls his eyes at Wylder . Well, let's just say, these two kinds of hate the shit out of each other sometimes .

" You know, the goods, dumbass!" Wylder mutters, loud enough for his brother to hear him .

Hunter unwillingly hands Wylder and I a small pack of white stuff to sniff. He deals drugs . Wylder doesn't give a fuck. As long as he gets to supply both of us with some . Then we promised we wouldn't tell his parents . Hunter doesn't do it for the money, he has that already. For his other  personal reasons I guess .

" Thanks!" Wylder pats Hunters back . Together, we push through the crowd upstairs . Find a deserted bedroom and start to sniff our way into a world where there's no worries or pain .

" Damn this shit is good!" Wylder laughs . I join him . I don't even know what I'm laughing at , but I don't care .

" Can you believe that we got it for free?" I say, chuckling a bit at the thought of how Hunter gave us the dead stare when we left him standing there .

" Shit yeah!" Wylder playfully punches my arm" I can't believe Josh can't get off my back about the breakup, come on!"

" What? " I find myself laughing too when Wylder starts telling me about Josh's accusations . " That guy needs a life!" I conclude .

" More like another dick to suck, so tired of his shit!" He adds besides me . We both just chortle. And start to enjoy the silence of the room .

" Do you think Lucas will ever let me touch him again?" I blunder out . Looking at the ceiling .

" Yeah, definitely . He has never been with anyone but you ." Wylder mumbles beside me .

" I miss being close to him, physically . Sleeping alone in the guest room is so lonely ."

" Then go do your magic and get laid you twat!" Wylder elbows me . Not hard enough to say he broke some ribs though, but hard enough to encourage me to stand up and do something about sexual frustration.

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