Devils and Angels (GG Reboot)

Chapter 60

Once you've ruined your reputation, you can live quite freely.

Not sure I agree with that.

For me, at least it's been the opposite.

I was, maybe still am, I don't know it's hard to tell sometimes, the golden girl.

Popularity, friends, work within the fashion world all came easy to me as if it was handed over on a silver platter.

Everything I have others had to work for.

I'm used to attention, but it was always the positive type until Luke.

He didn't necessarily ruin my reputation, but he sure did complicate it.

And since then, instead of living my life 'freely' I feel like it's been restricting.

Mom trying to control how the public saw me last school year was just the start.

At the time I did everything she wanted not because it's what I wanted but because I couldn't stand the thought of letting my parents down more than I already had.

Mom and dad were in so much pain over my decisions and I just, I just couldn't let that happen again.

While mom has backed off some this school year, the issue of my reputation precedes.

Not getting into Columbia (at least for now) when I have everything that would get me in if I wasn't known in the public eye hurt, badly.

Number three in my class, involved in multiple organizations, and that still wasn't enough.

Any control that I once had over my life is nonexistent.

I mean it goes beyond just not getting into my dream school.

People look at me differently.

I look at me differently.

And that scares me.

So, despite my reputation being ruined I haven't been able to live my life freely, instead the walls have caved in.

A mental battle between myself.

"Do you like it?"

"Hmm?" I jump a little in startlement.

"The poem, do you like it?" Declan questions from beside me.

"Oh, yeah. It's beautiful. No wonder Princeton wants you." I smile reassuringly at him.

"Thanks Lo. What do you think of this event so far?" he asks another question.

I take a moment to look at my surroundings.

Declan asked me to go with him to his Princeton Preview Day.

Basically, newly admitted freshman in his specific college get to meet with the Dean and current students to get a better insight into Princeton.

They are honoring the students by displaying one of their passion projects that they applied with.

Declan has an expert from his poetry book on display.

The rest of his poem was great, just that one line at the end messed with me.

The event itself is nice though, I'm happy that he got into Princeton.