Powerless God's In The Powerful World

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Fengjiu's POV

As I opened my eyes I could see the sun is about to rise well today I woke up early than usual. well, that is great by the way I need to complete the house before noon. so hurried stood up and went out of the cave there is a small hot spring near the cave and took a bath. As I came back I see xinxi cuddled into djuin and djuin held him like he used to do when I was in Taichen palace. well, yesterday during the dinner he was telling me about his Xiao huli well he don't know that it was me. sometimes I feel pity for myself that I did so many things no one could only for getting his love but fate had other things so I can't blame what happened. now I started to move on then my subconscious told trying to move on not" moved on". well, I trying to move on from him then just like a stone thrown out of nowhere hit on my head, djuin entered my life again and now I am stuck with him on this island and all alone just two of us. so all his attention is on me, I am in the fear that I won't say any clumsy thing that djuin figure about our past that would be the last thing I want to happen and it would be awkwardly embarrassing, I shook my head to clear my thoughts, right now I need to focus on to complete the house otherwise my all plan will be wasted. I looked towards djuin a smile came across my face he look so handsome while sleeping his face look so peaceful while sleeping like right now he has no worries about anyone or any burden of the universe.

I don't know when I came near djuin I couldn't resist I just kissed his forehead then it clicked to me that "WHAT THE HECK I HAVE DONE!!!!!! I JUST KISSED ON THIS FOREHEAD ON TOP THAT IS AWAKE HE WOULD HAVE FELT THE KISS!!!! NOW WHAT WILL I SAY IF ASK IF I KISSED ON HIS FOREHEAD... FENGJIU, FENGJIU YOU ARE THE BIGGEST STUPID IN THIS UNIVERSE!!!" and suddenly djuin opened his eyes and out of panic I said" Good morning djuin." and suddenly he touched the place where I kissed before and I was praying to the heavens that he didn't feel and he said" did you just took bath?" and I nodded other than I can't say anything due to the panic mode I am in any time he will ask about the kiss. suddenly he smiled but I could see he felt it but wasn't saying and he said" why are you up so early ?" and he just pulled me towards him and I ended up trap between his hands and his face was dangerously close to my neck and when spoke it send shivers in my spine . he said" let's sleep some more time I am liking right now our position cuddling this way with each other." and then he kissed my neck and I was red as a tomato and djuin spoke something unexcepted and not his usual self, it felt like he was djuin only but it is not at all alright . he said" you smell so nice Xiao bai. I feel like eating you up." then it clicked to me that he is not alright he is acting weird. first I need to get out of Djuin's arms somehow. I just need to act smoothly so I can get out of his arms I said in my sweet voice hoping to calm his dangerous desires because he gonna regret it when he gonna regain his conscience "Djuin I want to hug you too this is unfair only you hugging me so djuin please open your arms so I could turn your side." to my surprise he opened his arms and I took the opportunity get out of his arms and suddenly I stood up and I ran towards the entrance of the cave if ever pounce on me so I could run away but something else happened something unexpected he said" are you afraid of me? I am sorry I didn't mean to scare you I just want to cuddle with you. I am sorry." I don't know what made me do something stupid I just sat near him and placed my hands on his shoulder although I know he is not in his right mind he could do anything but still the war between mind and heart, heart only wins. I said "Are you okay ?" and then he suddenly wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him he said " I want to sleep on your lap " I just laughed and said" So why didn't you tell me before okay come." and I laid his head on my lap out of instinct I started stroking his hairs he suddenly spoke which scarred me, he said" don't stop I am liking the feeling of being loved ." and after saying this he suddenly fell asleep and woke up after 5 minutes and said," what are you doing Xiao bai?" I released he don't remember anything. I said in worry tone" You don't remember anything, you waking up before and many more things." he said " Xiao bai this is the first time me waking up after sleeping yesterday night. did I woke up before and did something bad and don't remember." I said, "It's okay djuin you were not in the right state of mind I knew it so I forgive you okay." I could see his face became blank he said" Tell me what did I do and said. please ." I mischievously smiled and said "Nothing that much just trapped me between your arms and said you want to cuddle with me "The look on his face I am enjoying it and he said" and," I said " And," he said cautiously " what happened after that" I just said with my calm face " nothing much you kissed my neck and said I smell so good that you want to eat me up. played along with you and said it is unfair that you only could hug me I want to hug you so open your arms I could turn your side and you opened your arms I took the opportunity and ran away from you .. suddenly you said sorry for scaring you just want to " he is getting impatient every minute and said" just want to.... please tell want happened after." I Bai Fengjiu The Queen of Qinque is the greatest person in this universe made THE LENGDERY DONGHUA DJUIN TO BEG ME . WELL I did some good karma to witness this rare moment of life . and I said" you just want to sleep on my lap." and his expression were most funny he said " wait, what? sleep on your lap and what did you do? and you let me why?" and now I was dumbfounded" What do you mean why?..... you were so sad that's why you... you only said that you never sleep on anyone's lap so you want to know how it feels." what he said next made me angry" So?" I looked at him confused and said" What do mean by so?" and his voice was rising when said," So, why do you care ?"  my anger was rising and I said in the more rising voice" WHY DO YOU MEAN BY WHY DO I CARE!!!!. WELL, YOU CAN'T MOVE A SINGLE BODY PART I TOOK CARE OF YOU!!!... YEA, WHY DID I TAKE CARE OF YOU THAT TIME I SHOULD HAVE LEFT YOU THERE!!! BUT... I AM NOT LIKE YOU HEARTLESS AND WITHOUT ANY EMOTION!!!... YOUR LITTLE FOX ALSO LEFT YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE FEELING THE ONLY THING YOU COULD DO IS JUST SAVE THE WORLD AND LIVE ALL ALONE!!! YOU COULD UNDERSTAND COMPANIONSHIP OR ANYTHING THAT IS WARM YOU ONLY UNDERSTAND HATRED, JEALOUSY, AND LONELINESS WHICH IS COLD JUST LIKE YOU ARE HEART... DID YOU EVER NOTICE THAT WHOEVER CARE FOR YOU DIDN'T STAY LONG WITH YOU THEY JUST LEAVE BECAUSE YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND OTHERS FEELING!!!!!." I was yelling at him he deserve it for hurting my feeling and making me cry. his face was very blank and I had never seen that look on his face I said" I don't like making myself count what I have done for others. " as I finished speaking I stood up and xinxi was fully awake due to our fight. I said" xinxi let's go... I have other works to do... so. lets go." I just picked up some fruits from basket . I looked at djuin who was sitting as stone said" you are going to you stay here take rest .. well I shouldn't care but still I feel like so I said because I was feeling obliged" and kowtowed on ground and continuing saying" and bai fengjiu ask Donghua Djuin have mercy on me and forgive me for what I said before.. since djuin is the most respected deity on this universe I shouldn't have said such harsh words I should have understand that you lived this long if felt that I have any selfish motive doing so forgive me if I ever made you feel like this.. forgive me djuin" I stood up and looked towards djuin's direction and who said" I am sorry Xiao bai." I said smiling which was obviously fake " why is djuin feeling sorry , it was my fault I shouldn't made you embarrassed I should have left you in your way I am junior in compared to you I should have understand what I have done is wrong and djuin please don't take that medicine now that you are cured its make doing the things that your inner self wanted to do once which you don't want remember and you only do it when feel safe around that person whom you know could trust.so don't intake the medicine and one more thing djuin please don't call me Xiao bai again please call me by name ." I stood up and start walking my way towards the waterfall leaving djuin on his own I was crying silently saying to myself that this is my fate never go near him and then only I can stop myself from getting hurt and now we are again on the same road once we were now we are strangers I think we are better as strangers since whenever we get friendly there is always some problems there to tear us apart and we did get apart. and suddenly I was engulfed in a hug and felt Djuin's breath near my ear and said in a whisper voice" I am sorry, Xiao bai I mean bai fengjiu I shouldn't have said something like this without thinking I should have understood that you care about me so, I am sorry bai fengjiu." I said in a cold and unaffected tone" if djuin is worried that I won't let you stay in the house that I am making, so don't worry about it you can stay . so let me go." djuin said in a more determined voice" not until you forgive me." I sighed already tired from the fight and said "You did a thing wrong djuin. so there is no need for asking forgiveness." now he again acting weird" Please..please ..please" I said "Okay..okay I forgive you, now go back." djuin said" Xiao bai I don't think I am still alright right I feel dizzy." before he could touch the ground I caught him and made him lay on my back and somehow I managed to take him back to the cave." and when this time he opened his eyes I said" good morning djuin" and he responded same with a smile. now the real djuin is back and I think he doesn't remember what happened well that is best and I am not thinking of telling him after what happened sometime before. so I asked in my regular cheery tone" Did you sleep well." he said" Yes, now I feel fresh so are we going down the waterfall... I am fully recovered so I can climb down my own." I plastered a smile and said under my breath making sure that djuin won't hear a single thing" yea fully recovered I could see what happened before tell how much you recovered I am worried about what is happening every day... oh heavens I can't take this drama every day." I was smiling while saying I think saw djuin muttering so said" What are saying, Xiao Bai?" I said smiling "Oh.. nothing djuin I was thinking how well you recovered so you will not come with me today just going to rest. okay now I am going and don't intake medicine since you fully recovered and now I am going bye djuin." djuin said "Wait take me with you I will sit there other than stay here all alone and I will take rest there. what do you think?" I said, "Okay... first have breakfast then we will go."