~Kaveh x Alhaitham one shots~

//What was I thinking?// (🖤)

Kaveh's POV:

I think.. I think I might be in love. I think I fell in love with Alhaitham.I have been for so long.. But, I've also been in denial. I was in love with the grand acting sage. But.. today is the day I'm telling him my true feelings. I've made up my mind.. Of course he would never want me.. but, I don't know how I happened to fall in love with him. 

Him and I used to be friends. We used to be very close with each other, but ever since we had a huge argument.. we.. we.. we hated each other. And, when I was living on the streets.. Alhaitham saved me. He took me from the streets, and gave me a place to sleep. 

Of course, I had to pay rent, and I also had to do the typical household chores. Such as cooking, cleaning, basically like a maid. But.. I was his roommate. I wasn't even his friend. How would he love me?

Should I just tell him I love him already?  Should I just tell him he's perfect for me? Should I- ok. Kaveh, stop it. Just tell him.. nothing's going to happen. If he doesn't like me, it'll be ok. 

But, how should I confess to him? He is home right now, I could just tell him. But.. what should I say to him?! Ugh.. I'm more of a coward than I thought I'am. 

It's fine. I..I should just tell him. There's no way I can't just hide it from him. I'll just say "Alhaitham.. I think I might like you." And go with the flow through the rest of it. 

But, what if he doesn't love me? It's going to be ok Kaveh. Stop fighting yourself.. just tell him you love him. 

I walk up to Alhaitham, his bright sage green gaze shifted up to my face. "What do you want Kaveh?" He asked, his tone saying nothing about his feelings. 

"Alhaitham I think I might like you.. I might.. be in love with you.." I look away from his gaze, scared of what he might say. He was too perfect.. I knew he wouldn't like me. 

Suddenly, I heard vivid laughs coming from in front of me. It was Alhaitham laughing.. why was he laughing?! Does he think I'm joking..?

"Hah! That's the funniest joke you've ever made, Kaveh." Alhaitham said, covering his mouth still giggling. "Alhaitham.. I'm being serious. I love you." Alhaitham' s face changed. His face went from relaxed and happy to a serious expression. His eyes were stern, and he started glaring at me. His mouth was no longer a smily shape. It was a frown. 

"If you're being serious.. I don't think I like you back. I'm sorry Kaveh." Alhaitham said with a normal expression before going back to his book. "Wh..what?!" I yelled randomly out of surprise. Tears started forming near my eyes. 

"You heard me, Kaveh. I'm not in love with you." Tears flow down my cheeks, why.. why was I crying?! Of course, of course the grand acting sage would never love me. What was I thinking? 

"I.. I.. ok.." Before I know it, more tears are rolling down my cheeks, I was indeed, crying. I ran to my room, and slammed the door shut. I don't care anymore. What the hell is wrong with me?! Of course, Alhaitham would never love me. 

Alhaitham' s gorgeous, beautiful, and's more than just amazing. He would never like me. I'm a failure who had to come to him for help. No wonder he hates me. Heh.. what was I thinking? 

He's amazing.. but.. he doesn't share my feelings. I should just stop crying. How will I face him next? I need to stop crying. I love him so much.. I can't just- No! I have to respect that he doesn't like me. 

But how can I get over him. I know he doesn't love me. I know he never will. I should just stop thinking about this. I should just stop thinking about him. 

Tears start pouring down my cheeks again, wow. I'm so pathetic. He won't love me. He never will. It's ok. He would never love me. We wouldn't ever be together.. so, What was I thinking?