~Kaveh x Alhaitham one shots~

//Save me (🖤-->💘)//

TW: Su!c!d3 + THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG ONE
Nobody's POV:
"Useless!"
"'Worthless."
"It's my fault."
"No wonder my mom left me."
"It's my fault my dad died."
"If only I'd kept my mouth shut."
"You don't deserve Alhaitham. He will never like you back."
"Disgusting."
"Nobody loves you."
"You don't deserve love."
"Murderer."
"You should just die."
Everyone would be better off without you.
Yes. Yes they would be.
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These were some of the thoughts that flew through Kaveh's mind everyday. He just couldn't rid himself of them. Wherever they went, it seemed like those words would follow him. Regardless of where he went, and what he did, these thoughts would always come back. He chuckled to himself, ominously staring off into the distance.

"Wouldn't it be better if I wasn't here? Wouldn't it be better if I were dead?" Kaveh smiled to himself. That's it. That's it. If he just didn't exist anymore, if he just left the world.. everything would be better. He was a murderer, was he not? He murdered his own father. His own blood.

Alhaitham wasn't in the house at the time, due to the fact his job as the acting grand sage made him stay back at work more often. He didn't shed any tears this time. He was completely numb to the pain this time. It was different. This time.

He instead giggled to himself. Ouch. His heart hurt. Oh, but he didn't care this time; since he didn't care about anyone other than Alhaitham. He walked to his room. He smiled. It was his last time that he would see this room. The last time he would ever step foot in here. Maybe, maybe if he were a better person.

He took out his writing tools, and a piece of paper, and began composing a letter. He smiled to himself again. This would be the last time he would ever write something. He wrote these words, in a perfect cursive way.

Dear Alhaitham, if you are reading this letter, than it means I'am dead. Or that I will be. I'm sorry for all of the trouble that I caused you. And, I'm sorry for all I did. Hey, do me a favor and take care of yourself more. If I'm not in this world by the time you read this, I just want you to take care of yourself. And, please, don't forget me, alright? I know the extent of what we've done with each other is mostly argue, but I want you to know I love you.

He stared down at those letters. Why- why did he write them? He didn't want to erase them. For some reason, he wanted for Alhaitham to see those three words he had just written down. He knew the answer deep down to his inquiry. It was because he loved Alhaitham. He really did. He just wanted for Alhaitham to know that before he left the world. But, he would never admit it. Even under circumstances like this.

He sighed, and continued drafting the letter.

Yes. Yes I do love you. I really do love you. You can have everything I have inside of my room right now. Just keep them. As something to remember me by. I only have one request other than that. Remember that one place I told you I always wanted you to visit? The one near Devantaka mountains? Visit it for me, please. I love you. -Kaveh

There. That looked good enough. It sounded good enough for Kaveh to leave behind for Alhaitham to read. He put down his pen, and walked over to Mehrak, who was laying face down on the bed. Mehrak was shut down, so he was fine. Mehrak wouldn't know that Kaveh would be gone by then, but Mehrak would adapt to being with Alhaitham and Alhaitham only. He touched Mehrak, and smiled. "Goodbye, Mehrak." He said, smiling.
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Alhaitham's POV:
My feet were moving at an inhumane pace, as I tried to find Kaveh. That one place near Devantaka mountains. I didn't know which one he was talking about, but I was prepared to find him. He couldn't leave. He couldn't. My life wouldn't be the same without him. My mind only thought of him and him only, and what my life would be like without him.

I wouldn't see his sweet smile, hear his soft laugh, stare at his perfect red eyes, or see the way he got flustered or angry just when I teased him. I would never see the way he would fall asleep in my arms when I would take him home from the tavern, or hear the way he would never shut up.

I ran faster and faster, I couldn't live without him. I knew I never told him this before, but I can't live without him. I can't live without his presence. I didn't care for once that we would never work if we were a couple. I could care less.

And there I saw him. He was standing in front of a statue of seven. "KA-KAVEH!" My voice came out raspy and quieter than I would've liked, and I tripped over my own words. "Oh! Haitham. Did you come here to this place for me, already?" He asked, turning his head to my direction. He had a smile on his face. It wasn't genuine. It was fake. It was a large fake smile, like one he had just carved out from the ground to cover-up a dead body.

"'D..DON'T- DON'T YOU DARE.. I-" I was cut off by his sweet voice laughing. But, it wasn't just a regular laugh. It was a horribly ghoulish one. One that was gruesome. "Oh, but Haitham.. it's not like I deserve to live anyways. I'm a murderer. I murdered my own father. I tore apart my own family." I was cut off before I could even say anything by his ghoulish laughter once more.

"And, you would like it if I were gone, wouldn't you? You would have your house all to yourself, without your roommate there with you. Your annoying bratty roommate. And-" It was my turn to cut him off. "NO. SHUT UP, KAVEH! I DON'T WANT THE HOUSE TO MYSELF. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE AT ALL. NOT IF YOU WEREN'T THERE. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE JUST DON'T JUMP! PLEASE.. LET ME TAKE YOU HOME!" I yelled at the top of my lungs, my breath was getting more and more jagged every passing second. Tears finally rolling down my face.

He laughed. But this time, it was an upsetting one. A weepy one. Just like one a child would use when getting injured. "Home. It's such a comforting word, isn't it? But, what if.. home would be better without me?" I ran to him. Faster than I've ever ran before. "DON'T. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE, DON'T LEAVE ME. DON'T LEAVE US." I said, meaning what I said.

"I'm sorry.." he said, before taking one step off of the grassy platform we had been stepping on. "KAVEH!" I screamed. I wasn't letting him die. Not without a fight. I jumped down after him. The tears in my face flowing around everywhere. I didn't care, I just needed to save Kaveh. My hand grasped onto Kaveh's hand, I saw the look of surprise on his face.

I didn't say anything to him, and he didn't say anything to me. I wrapped my hand around his waist, and I summoned my sword from the abyss. I held my sword tightly, and I safely plummeted us to the ground. I wrapped my hands around him tightly, the tears rolling down my face even more quicker. I took ragged and loud  breathes, holding onto him so tight that he wouldn't be able to let go of my grasp. I still held him comfortably, yes, but, I did hold him tightly.

"Hai-Haitham..." tears still fell down my face. I hated the way he sounded when he said that. He sounded so heart broken.. I just wanted to wrap him up in my arms and kiss his face till he smiles again. He slowly landed onto the ground, making the ground shake a bit with the amount of pressure we smashed into the ground.

My hands were still tightly wrapped around him. "'Kaveh.." I spat out in between sobs and loud gasps. "'I-I'm so-sorry, Alhaitham.. I- I-" I ruffled Kaveh's hair, in an attempt to comfort him. "Don-don't apologize... you- you don't ev-even need to s-say anything." I said, still sobbing. He held on tightly to my shirt. This is the first time I held him so tightly.

"Ca-can we g..go h-h-home?" He said, quietly whispering into my ear; which didn't have headphones wrapped around them. "Yes.. Yes, let's go home." I said, as I lifted him up off the ground, laying his head on my shoulder, and holding his waist.
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Finally. We were home. I slipped us inside of our warm and safe house. "'I-I love you.." Kaveh said, holding on tighter to me. My heart felt real again. My heart even started racing. "'I..I lo-love you too.." Everything would be alright. Everything would be ok, now that he's here.