⚠️ SUICIDE ATTEMPT ⚠️
I was out of work again. Because I had a couple of fractures in my collarbone and I was still healing from my concussion. JJ was at work and I want going to lie. I just felt really bad. Nothing seemed worth it anymore. Nothing. All I did was keep getting hurt and I was just a burden to everyone. Maddy barely called anymore and I wasn't an asset to them team. I had taken so much time off I wouldn't be surprised if they had just forgotten about me. We had no evidence backing up the fact that my kidnapper had sent the photos and no evidence for anyone else. So I was just alone and hopeless.
I took a deep breath as I made the decision. JJ was going to be home in 40 minutes so I had to be fast.
JJ,
I'm really sorry. I really am I promise. I know you always tell me not to apologize but I don't want you to think that I did this to hurt you. Because I would never try to hurt you. Everything has just become too much for me and I can't take it anymore. It hurts so bad and I don't know what to do. Never forget that I love you. Always. I tried really hard, I really wanted to stay here but after a while it just became too exhausting. Please remember that I love you. <3Love,
CamI put it out on the bed and saw that I only had 15 minutes left once I figured out how to word it. I went to the kitchen with shaking hands, grabbing a knife. I walked to the bathroom and sat down in the tub, holding the knife to my wrists. I pressed it down hard and cut fast multiple times so I could make sure that it worked.
I sat in the tub for a few minutes before I started to feel faint. Then I heard the door open...JJ. "Cam?" That was all I heard before it went black.
I was half awake. Like I was conscious but I couldn't open my eyes. My body was too heavy to do anything. "Baby...I feel your heart beating...I know you can hear me. I put tight bandages on your wrists to stop the bleeding. The medics are here." I heard JJ's voice through her sobs. "It's going to be ok...it's gonna be ok."
"Ma'am I need you to step away we need to carry her to a more open area. We don't need to bring her to the hospital but we need to clean her wounds."
"Can I carry her?" JJ whispered.
"Of course ma'am." I felt JJ lift me up and she slowly walked over to our kitchen, placing me down on the kitchen table.
"Are these self harm scars?" The medic asked.
"Yes." I heard JJ's voice as she choked back a sob. I felt a burning sensation on my wrist that woke me up a little bit. I winced and then felt JJ's hands on my face. "Camden...Camden open your eyes." I opened my eyes slightly and saw tears streaming down her face. "Oh my God. I thought I lost you." She kissed my forehead and I felt her tears fall onto my face. "Baby, can you talk?"
"Hi." I breathed out. She smiled widely and caressed my cheeks.
"Hi baby." I gave her a small smile but my heart sunk as I realized that it hadn't worked. "What's wrong?"
"I shouldn't be here." I whispered, trying to sit up. JJ pushed me back down and shook her head.
"What do you mean?" I turned to her and a tear rolled down my cheek.
"It was supposed to work." She opened her mouth but closed it, not knowing what to say.
"Baby...don't say that." She said finally. I looked around the room and saw that the medics were gone. How much time had passed? I sat up and held my head as I started to feel faint. She cupped my face again and stood in front of me as I moved to the edge of the table. "Why? Why did you do this?"
"You read the letter." She nodded and didn't question me any further.
"I really thought I lost you." She kissed my forehead and grabbed my hands. "Don't do that ever again, you promise me?" I turned away from her and she grabbed my face gently. "Cam...promise me."
"I promise."
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Someone To Stay
FanfictionCamden Frost x Jennifer Jareau this story will have a lot of trigger warning and there will be multiple things that could be considered trigger warnings in every chapter so if you're sensitive to any of the things listed below, do not read. the who...