LIMH| Lean Into My Heart- Kay Flock

Chapter 63: I'm Not Your Baby!

Justine

"Yo what you chattin bout? that same day you got the results back you texted me and said Ja was the father, and now all of a sudden it's me?"

I know I was wrong for keeping it away from Kay but I couldn't help it. I coulda lost Kamiya too if I stayed with Kay any much longer, but that's what I think. I was already stressing out.

The last time I saw Kay before I left, he was choking me and pinning me against the wall in a hospital where we was visiting Dougie. I was tired of the abuse but then again it's like I can't blame him because he was the boy I chose to spend the rest of my life with.

I should've told him as soon as I got the results back I know, but Ja wasn't even happy either. I didn't even wanna tell Kay because I thought he would've had the same reaction too. I lost my trust for Kay right after he started denying her when I first got pregnant.

And we'll for Temetrius.... I could say less.

Flashback...

"Fuck you mean that nigga the father?" Ja started screaming in my face while Kamiya remained crying in her car seat. I was in my California home after cleaning up the the mess from Kamiya's first birthday party.

I got the DNA test back as a apparently "surprise" but nothing was surprising about it. Seem like Ja reached to the mail before me.

"I've been in Kamiya life since she was born and you fin tell a nigga I ain't the father?" Ja had a angry expression on his face. He was drunk and even after I told him not to drink or bring alcohol to the party he still insisted and got really unstable. He grabbed me by my throat and held me tightly. Felt like I couldn't breathe. He stared at me directly in my eyes while he yelled, spit eventually going onto my face.

"LET GO OF MY MOMMY!" Kaiyeer came running hitting Ja repeatedly on his leg. I felt like I could've passed out in any second. He was holding my throat mad tight yo. Kai kept hitting him but that just made Ja annoyed and mad as he quickly hit my son. I couldn't do anything about it.

Next thing you know his hand softens on my neck as he whimpered in pain. Ja was jumping around holding his leg that had blood coming out of it. I collapsed to the ground before seeing Kaiyeer holding the same knife we used to cut the cake, which I quickly took from his hand even though I had low energy.

This was happening right by him and his little sisters and Kai was just thinking fast.

"Mommy are you okay?" I kept on coughing and couldn't even speak. I saw my son with tears in his eyes while his left cheek displayed red. Everything was going quiet for me while the last thing I heard was cries coming from both my babies.

I don't even know what I could've done anymore.

It's like I blame myself for everything at this point. When is it my turn to heal?

Ja was completely passed out from a huge fall he took. He'll be knocked out and seeing us gone.

The only reason he was hoping my daughter was his was because he wanted Kay to be jealous. Real evil world we live in I tell ya.

end of flashback...

"I'm sorry Kay! I didn't know how to tell you when you where declining that she wasn't yours!" I started sitting up sobbing.

"You stopped seeing Kai and Kaela after you find out I cheated! Did I ever once stop making you stop seeing your kids after you cheated on me? I even trusted Ally with our kid!"

I need to stop trying to force people to love me when I'm going through the most. I seem to care about other people's feelings knowing I need to help my own self first.