LIMH| Lean Into My Heart- Kay Flock

Chapter 68: I Love You Too Kevin

KAY

"I don't know why you overreacting. Kay I'm fine" We was pushing Justine through a wheel chair out of the hospital and all she could've done was boss us around, while we where making our way to the car.

At least that's what I wished happened. But instead I'm sitting on the bed in funeral clothes.

The girl I was with my whole life. Gone. Can't do nothing bout it either.

"Daddy where are we going? I don't like the color black" Kamiya came in being confused. She think what happened that night wasn't real and thinks ha moms just at work in Cali.

My kids been in New York for 3 weeks and no one really spoke or acknowledged each other ever since what happened that night.

Kaiyeer been worse. He ain't talk to no one. Just stayed in what used to be his room crying and not letting no one in.

I've personally been sharing a bed with Kaela since she say she too scared to sleep on her own. Kamiya been sleeping in the guest room with ha brother. She been the only one actually trynna talk to people in the house.

While Kalani? she just trying to figure out how she could keep a smile on her face.

"Don't worry bout it okay? after we leave I'ma take you and ya siblings for some ice cream ight?" she nodded her head in excitement.

So far I guess ya could say I've been doing well. Y'know Kay a warrior despite getting shot twice in one night and surviving. The bitch only hit the arm and leg. I'll be ight.

They arrested ha and now she waiting trial on the 8th of June with Nas. Turned out they both was on with it. Now both em won't see they kid get older. Hoe you that dumb?

But for right now, I have plans that after the funeral, I'ma fully move from New York. I think the kids feel more safe in Cali especially since they call it their home.

"Okay I'm ready" Kaela came in showing off ha dress, "Kaiyeer's already in the car with Kalani and I finished dressing up Kiyan and put him in his car seat"

"ight just take Kamiya in the car and I'll be down in a few" I took up my walker while Kamiya grabbed my hand quick, "Daddy do you need help?"

"Nah I'm good baby. Just go downstairs with Kaela. I'ma be there" she nodded her head and grabbed Kaela's hand as they made their way outta the room.

Although I was leanin a bit, I managed to pick up the flowers I plan on putting on her casket. It was the same flowers she left in ha room before she went on stage. The same flowers I gave her on her birthday when I asked her to be my girl. Who woulda knew that the next time she woulda gotten these it woulda been the day I had to bury her. Cause I didn't.

I tried to keep 'em in water so they woulda stayed hydrated and stay in the sun, but they still managed to get old.

This the second last thing I had of Justine. The other was the kids. 5 of em.

I went downstairs turning off the lights and locking the door as I was making my way to the car. I unlocked the door and started the engine before driving off. It's a lil hard doing this with one hand but a nigga been driving with only one since 16.

Justine funeral was all the way in Brooklyn which was a hour drive from here. The whole car drive was nothing but silence from everyone. The only thing ya could hear was Kamiya playing with ha brother and hearing him laugh.

Kai was silent. Kaela was silent. Kalani was silent. And I was silent too.

We made it to the funeral seeing how packed it was. From family, to celebrities, to random people I didn't even know knew Justine.