Baby blue short stories

I love you more than I hate me 2

It was already late when Tad left. Suddenly I realized Mason hadn't returned. Now,that would be a lot of air.

I went outside on the campus and started searching for him.

"Mason!", I called.

When I didn't find him I told a teacher.

Together we started searching.

We found Mason curled up on a bench,a bit into the next town.

"Hey.", I greeted him.

"Leave me alone.", He answered.

"You coming back?  You had enough air.", I said softly.

Mason sat up.

"Why would you want me to come back? I would rather freeze to death.",he said and I saw in his eyes that he ment it. That shocked both me and the teacher.

"Mister Gleefull, please come with me. We'll be seeing the campus nurse.", They said.

Mason nodded slowly. I walked a bit behind him and the teacher.

I thought of what he just said. Was Mason Gleeful... depressed?

The boy that stood above everything and everyone, that bullied me into trying to off myself, was he the depressed one now? Was he in pain? Why?

I thought of the note.

His guardian was put into prison. I remembered it. Stanford Gleefull was put behind bars for corruption, tax fraud and...and child abuse.

Suddenly I felt sorry for Mason. Sure,he had been awful. But now? He didn't seem awful anymore.

I went to bed,deep in thoughts.

I immediately woke back up when Mason entered his room.

I stood up and went to the kitchen, to get a glass of water, but instead of going into mine, I knocked on his room.

Mason opened it after a bit.

"You okay?", I asked.

Wow,that was a stupid question. Obviously he wasn't.

Naturally, he shook his head.

"Can I come in? You wanna talk about it?", I offered.

"There's nothing to talk about, really. I know what I did to you, you suffered from it and I'll have to live with that.", He huffed.

"Mason, I-", I started.

"You being nice makes it so much worse right now. I don't deserve it."

I sighed, then went to my room, where I got some rest.

The next days I spent a lot of time with Tad. He was just so nice and sweet.

We had lots of fun.

Meanwhile, Mason got sadder every day and I could basically watch him fall apart,just because of me being near him.

Eventually they let him switch dorms.

My new mate was Tad. I didn't know if I liked that, honestly. It ment he was always around and I felt like he expected me to finally sleep with him.

After we dated for two weeks, I was ready.

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"Man, isn't it way to hot for long sleeves?", Asked Tad.

I nodded slowly.

"Tad. I would really love to...you know...but I'm scared of it.", I sighed.

"Don't worry, I'd be very gentle.", Tad smiled softly, kissing my cheek.

"That's not the problem. It's just, I don't really like certain things about my body and I feel like you wouldn't think I'm beautiful anymore if you saw them.", I explained carefully.

Tad raised a brow, then smiled again.

"You are trans, right? I should've known. It's no biggie."

"Tad,I am not trans. I was really depressed when I was younger, because I was bullied. And I hurt myself...", I blurted out.

Tad closed his eyes, then asked: "did you cut? Do you still..."

"I did, but I stopped two years ago. It's only scars.", I answered.

There was silence for a bit.

Then he leaned his head against my shoulder and said: "William, I love you. More than anything. I will always love you and I will always think you're the prettiest person in the world. I don't care about those scars, if anything I'd kiss every single one if you'd let me."

I kissed him.