Baby blue short stories

I love you more than I hate me 3

Tw: suicide

PoV Mason
Seeing Will had destroyed me. It threw me back to the old days and the things I wanted to forget.

But at the same time, talking to him felt like a pain killer.

His voice was so soft, his eyes so pretty and his behavior so...so lovable.

He was smart and pretty, everything I ever wished for in a partner and so much more.

But he would never have feelings for me. Not after what I did.

He almost died the night after I burned his school back with all the books in it.

His family couldn't afford new books. He was living with his older brothers and they all couldn't go to college, because of money problems.

Now, I didn't know this at the time. But Mabel found out for me, that Wills father drank himself to death, because they're mother ran away.

And I still bullied to poor boy. When he needed so much love and a few friends, I gave him hell and made sure nobody liked him.

I was walking to the college therapist when suddenly he stood in front of me.

Tad Strange, Wills boyfriend.

"You.", He growled.

I stopped walking. His voice was dripping with hate aggressively.

There was no one else around.

I tried to walk past him, but he grabbed my wrist, grabbed it way to hard.

"Will might have forgiven you, but he's the only one who will ever do that.", He growled.

I swallowed thickly, then I said: "I know."

"Don't think you're something better. You're just some pathetic excuse of a tiny person. You don't deserve all the nice things Will says to you.", He said clearly.

I nodded.

"I know. I'm awful."

He let me go, then walked away.

I cried during my appointment. I also cried myself to sleep that night.

I don't know if Will told Tad about our past, but I'm sure he didn't mean for the hell that broke loose the next day.

Tad had told everyone, at least everyone knew.

Students spat at me in the school hallway and insulted me constantly.

That did not make it better, but I deserved it.

Tad didn't let Will close to me.

I didn't call home anymore, didn't pick up or anything.

Eventually I couldn't take it anymore. I climbed on the school roof and looked down.

I deserved this. I was awful.

Suddenly I heard that angelic voice.

"Please. Come down with me.", He said.

"You should be happy. I really do deserve nothing but death.", I told him.

"That's not true, Mason. I heard what the others did and I told them to never do that again. And I broke up with Tad.", Will said.

I didn't look at him, but let him pull me away from the edge and to the door.

"You will be put into a mental hospital now,but don't be scared. They will help you.", Will murmured.