νεκρός || Annabeth Chase x Fem!OC

Vol. 2-8: The denial is severe

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I think you have a crush on her.

I'd like to say those words settled with me well. Oh, no, Grover! I don't have a crush on Annabeth! Sure, she's really pretty, and I want her to hug me again, and I can't stop thinking about her, and I keep thinking really weird things about her- I don't like Annabeth!

But, that's a lie. Those words basically made me remember every terrible thing that's ever happened to me, and I had to resist punching the stupid satyr across Camp Half-Blood. Why would he say that? It's not okay. Does he think I'm gay? Is that it? Sure, I don't present myself super feminine. I never really have, I guess. But, that doesn't mean I like girls. Because girls don't like other girls.

Besides, I'd never had a crush on anyone. Is it different to have a crush on someone of the same sex than the opposite? Maybe it is. I'm not sure. I don't think I've ever really thought about anyone like this.

I remember one time, I eavesdropped on a conversation two girls were having about boys. Yes, I'm aware that's a little creepy, but I was curious. I wanted to have a crush very badly at that time, since I believed it would make me feel normal. I figured eavesdropping would get me to figure out how to tell if I did have a crush.

But the girls started talking and I didn't like what they had to say. Things about how a man looked with his shirt off, how strong he was, how his hair looked. And I started thinking about all those things and didn't really like it. I don't think I'm attracted to short hair. It's weird. I also don't like idiots that think displaying their strength makes them the hottest thing on earth. And don't even get me started on the sweaty thing. Those girls though this guy was the hottest thing on earth when he was working out and drenched in sweat. It just didn't look good, if I'm being honest. It reminded me of a roasted pig- one of the glistening ones on the spike with an apple in it's mouth? Then I got really excited for food so I infiltrated this big company meeting and got some good food.

I don't know. Maybe I'm rambling or I'm crazy or something, but men are just not that attractive. There are plenty of guys in Camp Half-Blood that are all the rage, but they just... ew. That's all I can say. Ew. I mean, just the thought of a man trying to touch me actually makes me want to jump off a cliff. Which is unfortunate, since doing that won't kill me.

Then I scolded myself. Girls are supposed to like boys. But, if girls are supposed to like boys, why are boys so fucking ugly and gross?

It's very flawed, if you ask me.

I ended up passing Cabin 6, and it made me sad. I turned and looked at it, thinking about the days when I would see Annabeth sitting on the front steps, reading a book.

What's it about? I would ask.

Properties of each element in the periodic table, acids and bases, compound bonds-

Boring.

Why did you ask?

I wanted to see just how nerdy you really are.

Maybe you should pick up a book every once in a while.

I do. It's called 'The Shining.' Maybe you should read it.