Divergent: If War Hadn't Happened: BOOK ONE

Chapter 1: Two Choices, One Desicion.

After the rankings, I decide to head outside to get some fresh air, and to process that my name was number one on the rankings. I didn't think I would have placed first. I thought my rank would drop because of the first stage of initation.

In the next day or two, we will choose our jobs. I'm not really sure what job I will choose. I want a government job but, I want to be close to Tobias. And, once I have chosen my job, I can't switch. So, it's something I need a while to think over but, we have a short time limit.

I sigh and kick a pebble with the tip of my shoe.

I'm not sure if my mother would be proud of me. When she visited on visiting day she told me to keep close to bottom, and now i'm here, number one on the list. Will my ranking make me more of a target? The horrific memories come back into my mind. Al's hand clamped over my mouth, me, struggling to get free. Peter almost tossing me over the chasm. If Tobias haven't of came to rescue me' i'd be dead. 

Dead.

The word tastes foul in my mouth. I shake my head to release the thoughts away from my mind. I turn and start towards the dormitories. I slowly walk down the hallway. Passing doors, on the left and right when, I reached Tobias door. The door's just abit ajar. I take a deep breath and place my hand on the surface and slowly pushing it open, as it creaks.

"You scared to open the door?" he says.

"No." I say, As I walk into the room and shut the door behind me. "No. I just wanted to come, I guess."

He nods his head, as he pats on the bed, for me to come sit beside him. I walk forward, and sit down next to him. He wraps his arm around my waist, and I lie my head onto his shoulder. I sigh and he pulls me closer. I take a deep breathe and his scent fills my senses. He smells like detergent.

"So, what did you really come here for Tris?" he asks

I don't look up at him, I keep my eyes focused on the hardwood. But, I know he's looking at me. I pull away from him and turn to face him. "It was either come here, or begin packing. I chose here."

He nods again, and says "Have you considered any jobs yet?"

I shake my head. I don't want to tell him about what I had considered. I know he wants me to get a job related to his but, I'm not sure if it's something i'd want to do for awhile. I don't think I'm going to tell him anytime soon.

"Didn't really want to think of it. And, still don't want to think about it." I force a small laugh.

"It's not so bad." he shrugs.

I continue to trace at the floor and I smooth my hand over my forehead. Tobias places his finger on my chin and raises my head up.

"You okay?" he asks.

"I just." I sigh. "Everything's going so fast. And, I don't even think I'm ready to take a step forward."

"Ready or not, your going to have to be able to take that step forward."

"It's just nerve wracking." I say.

He just nods. I don't know why but, I expected more from him. To tell me more, or to tell me not to worry but, he doesn't. He just stays there, his eyes focused on mine.

I stand up and brush my pants off like there's something on them, but there isn't. I start to walk towards the door, and Tobias gets up as well and follow's behind me. Before, I open the door, I turn around and plant my hands onto his waist, as he does the same. He bends down and kisses me, sending me a warm ache through my body. I pull away, then pull him closer, wrapping my arms around him as my head is on his chest.

"I'm scared Tobias" I say, my voice muffled in his shirt.

"Don't be" He says quietly.

"I just don't want to make the wrong desicion"

"You won't. Just think about what you want. Okay?"

I nod and I pull away and head out the door.

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I head back to the dormitories and decide it's time to pack up my things. I grabbed a duffel bag earlier, to grab the remainder of my things. I began to fold my pants, when Christina walked in.

"Hey. What are you doing?" she asks, sitting right on the bed beside me.

"Just finishing packing up." I let out a deep sigh, and put my hands in my lap. I turn to face her. "I never thought this would be over so soon. It's kind of hard to let everything go, and start new"

She nods. "Yeah. I know. It's sad."

We sit there in complete silence for the next couple minutes as I begin to fold the rest of my clothes, stacking them in piles to make them nice and neat.

It's hard to know initiation is over, and were going to be moving into our own apartments, starting new jobs, new lives. I wonder if Tobias will be in my new life. If we will get married and start a  family? No, I'm 16. I don't need to be thinking about that right now. All I need to focus on is what job I'm going to choose. Government or Dauntless Initiation Trainer?

I finish packing my clothes, and I zip the duffel bag fully shut.  I lift the bag and carry it beside my bed, and then I lean against the bed frame.

Should I ask Christina about the jobs? I mean, she's my best friend and she'll tell me what's best for me. But, she also wanted the Dauntless Initiation Trainer, and she wanted me to be it with her. So maybe that will effect what her response is. I decide to go with my instinct, and ask her anyways.

"Uhm Christina? Can I ask you something?"

"Yes." she looks concerned, since I don't often ask her for her opinion on things.

"It's about the jobs." I look down at the floor, hoping to find some inspiration, of something to help me continue what I have to say but, nothing. "Should I go and get a job in the government or should I be a dauntless initiation trainer? I want to get in government because, I think it's something I'm capable of doing and I truly think it's something i'd like to do but, I'd also like to do Dauntless Trainer and plus i'd be closer to Four. I just. I just don't know what to do."

Her eyes fall to the ground and then they follow back up to find mine. "I think you should choose what you want to do. Of course i'd want you to choose the same job I would but, if it's something your going to be doing for your whole life and your not happy with it, I wouldn't choose it." She sighs. "I really don't know what to tell you Tris. It's just that decision that you have to decide on your own. "

"Yeah I guess" my reaction was blank, which obviously gave her the sense, her response was not much big help. She gets up from sitting and then heads towards the door.

"Maybe you should ask Four. Since there's obviously something going on between you two." she raises her eyebrows, and begins to laugh. And I decide to join in as well.

"Well, we've been dating for awhile." a smile begins to increase on my face just thinking about him. He doesn't treat me like a little abnegation girl who, can't do nothing. He knows I'm capable of doing alot of things and that's one of the reasons I like him. Alot.

"You didn't tell me any of this!" She pouts.

"Well, I didn't want to reveal it to everyone." I shrug my shoulders.

"But, I'm your best friend! I wouldn't have told anyone."

"You know now, that's all that matters." I say, with a smile.

 She nods her head then says, "Well, um, I'm going to find Will. I'll see you later"

"Yeah, you have fun with you boyfriend" I say as loud as I can

Before she leaves she just rolls her eyes and waves goodbye, leaving me alone in this four wall, room all by myself. I glance around the room knowing, I'm never going to see this room for a while. Unless I choose to be a Dauntless Trainer.

I don't know what I'm going to do but, I dont have alot of time.