Divergent: If War Hadn't Happened: BOOK ONE

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I didn't do much that night after the whole Christina situation, then the Eric situation. Tobias was still mad at me and he hadn't said anything. I passed him a couple times in the hallway but, he didn't bother to look at me. How much I wished I could just go up and hug him, that's all I wanted right now was a hug.

There was no one here. I was alone.

I think about Will. How I didn't get to say goodbye. How I could of fixed everything by just going to Erudite. But, that hadn't happened. And, there are going to be more and more people, slowly dying as time goes on and It's going to be my fault. Because, I'm the one who hadn't went to Erudite and I still haven't went.

But, can I still go?

No. Tobias will be even more angry if I left now.

But, I can save people. My friends, my faction.

I decide to get up and slowly walk out, turning to the elevator. When it beeps, and the doors open, I walk inside and they close. It's just me and these mirrors, my reflection glaring, me practically staring at myself. I have to admitt, I'm still not used to all this mirror stuff and I've been here for awhile now, already.

When the doors slide open, I step out making sure no ones around. I walk up to the front doors then the other elevator beeps and opens.

Tobias was there.

I push the doors open as fast as I could then quickly get outside.

He's going to stop me again.

"Tris?" I hear Tobias right behind me. Busted.

I turn around. "So, now you talk to me?"

"Where are you going?" he asks, walking closer, until we are face-to-face.

"It doesn't matter." I say, turning around. He then catches my wrist and I spin back around to face him. "What!" I yell.

"Why are you out here? I mean I got out of the elevator and you just jolted right out. Where are you going." he says with a rough tone.

He always wanted everything out, how much I've tried to keep it a secret he always gets the truth out of me.

I sigh and look down. I know he's still looking at me. I can't look back up and and see the anger in his expression when I tell him I was going to Erudite.

"Well. I was going to go to Erudite." I breathe out.

He just stares at me, his eyes with anger. "Erudite? Seriously Tris? Didn't I tell you earlier to stop putting yourself in danger, your going to kill yourself!"

He was yelling at me.

"It's what's best Tobias! Who says there going to kill me, huh? Maybe it will get all of this killing spree, over! I'm so tired of you telling me what I can and cannot do!"

"Because it's Jeanine! You never know what shes going to do! And maybe if you weren't always being so reckless, I wouldn't have to watch out for you all the time but, you tend not to listen to what I have to say!"

I bursted out in anger. Screaming. "You think I want to do this? I don't want to hurt you! But, if this is what I have to do to keep you from dying and my friends from dying, then that's what I'm going to do!"

He shakes his head and takes a couple steps going back and forth. "I'm the one trying to keep you from dying Tris." he says calmly. "You keep putting yourself in these situations where I don't know if I'm going to be there to help you, one day." He stares at the ground, unable to look at me. He was hurt, I had hurt him, again for the second time today.