Divergent: If War Hadn't Happened: BOOK ONE

-14-

-14-      (sorry for the wait. forgive me )

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"Caleb? What are you doing here?"

"Beatrice, you have to leave." he says urgently.

I shake my head, "What? Leave? Remember the first time I left? I almost became factionless!"                I stare at him, I don't understand what he's trying to tell me.

The last time I tried to leave, Eric threatened to kick me out of Dauntless, and to lower my friend's initation ranks, which could of costed them to be factionless, also. How much I have missed Caleb, he still was rude to me back in Erudite, he had forgotten everything he learned in Abnegation but, there's a part of me that doesn't want to care, that just wants to hug him, since he's the closest to my family I have right  now.

But does it really matter? He almost costed you everything.

"Jeanine."  the word is vile, "It's either you leave now, or you'll be in danger."

"Really? I've been in danger this whole time, Caleb! Nothing has happened to me! I mean, do you even care?"

He just stares at me, shocked. Maybe, I said it too harshly.

"I've always cared Beatrice. If I didn't care I wouldn't be here." He turns his head where the darkness had covered half of his face. I don't think he wanted me to look at him.

He turns around and starts to walk away. "Caleb! Where are you going?"

"I've told you what needed to be said. But, don't come to me saying I didn't warn you."

"Caleb wait!" I put my hand on his arm and he turns around and looks at me. His eyes goes dark, and I know he's mad at me.

"What do you want Beatrice."

Confused- not know what to say, tears developed in my eyes but, didn't fall. "I don't understand. Why do they want me? I mean, how did you find this out?"

"I just did, and I'm telling you to prepare, there's nothing more I can do to help you. I've done what I could."

I shake my head in frustration. My cheeks burn. "Really Caleb, really? Your my own brother, and it's like your refusing to help me!" A tear falls down my cheek. "Do you even care about me? Do you not understand she's out to destroy me! And you can't do one  thing to help me out?"

I stare at him looking for some kind of answer-response. None was given, his eyes just drift to the ground.

"What I thought." another tear falls, "just go."

"What?" he says in disbelief.

"I get it. You don't care. So, just go. Along with everyone else."

He glares at me, then takes a few steps forward, then stops, and turns around. "I want to help you Beatrice but, I can't. I'm sorry."

All I hear is his footsteps walk away. Where they were loud, to now a soft sound, that can barely be heard. But, it's baffles me. It makes me mad, that a brother is willing for his own sister to be destroyed. I mean, who knows what else he is doing?

I push myself to the ground, and my sobs overwhelm me but, I don't care. I don't care about anything because, my whole world is a mess. Everything is wrong and it's just not how it's supposed to be. It's not right. And, the worst thing is, I don't know when it'll stop because, when I want everything to be on pause, it just gets worse, and it's killing me.