Divergent: If War Hadn't Happened: BOOK ONE

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There's something about the world

As if it somehow gotten dark

As if all the people we all once knew

Have become people who are strangers

The people who would once risk their life for you

Would do anything to destory you

What is a world full of strangers

Who are out to kill you

There's hope in the world

But I don't believe it

There's not much to believe anymore

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"I can't find them." I say, with lost breath. Tobias and I have been searching the whole compound over the past hour. " I told them I would find them but, I can't find them."

"Tris, calm down." Tobias says but I shake my head. He puts a hand on my shoulder but, I walk further away and he drops it. He follows close behind me. His footsteps seem loud in my ears.

Christina, Shauna and Lynn were supposed to run away but stay close by where I could atleast find them. But I have to leave. How can I leave without them? Can I leave? No, I can't leave them behind.

I jump to a conclusion, "what if something bad happened Tobias? What if someone got shot or someone got hurt or even k-"

Tobias cuts me off. He doesn't want to hear it. But, someone could of died. I don't want to think about it either.

"Stop." He says.

I look up to him, but he continues looking the other way. "Well." I brush my hand through my hair. "I don't know." I breath out.

I don't really give up often when it comes to my friends but, this could've been it. This could've been the breaking point and one of them could have died because of me. I did it again.

I walk over to a wall and Tobias follows behind me. He doesn't say anything which makes me feel relaxed somehow but also in a panic. I slide down and end up in a crouch and just stare at my feet with my head down. I sense Tobias looking at me but I don't want to look up.

"Tris." He says, "they're alive. I know they are so, just don't give up yet okay?"

I stand up and look up to him. I've never felt so small. "How? How can you just not give up, huh? All I've been doing is running from Jeanine," the tears fall from my eyes "- and the last thing I want is to involve more people Tobias. But that's all I've done, was either get people in danger or hurt them."

He just stares at me and I stare back at him. I don't know how he had so much hope and belief in this. He knows people have died from Jeanine, and how can he not just think that they could've got caught? 

"The only thing we have left in this world these days is hope. Hope for it to get better."

I purse my lips and continue to stare at him. I wipe the dried tears from my face that have fallen earlier. For a Dauntless, I shouldn't be crying this much.

"But what if I don't have hope right now?" I ask

He taps his foot on the ground a couple times, keeping the same rhythm. Then his eyes return to mine. "Knowing you, if you didn't have hope you wouldn't be here right now."

I nod my head. There were so many times I've just wanted to give up on this life I have been living but I held on. I held on to what I had because I knew things would get better. But is this better? Is running for your life better? People are dying, does that make it better? Is this broken world better?