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it had been about a full week since miles burst out at me. i've been getting closer with chris, taken that me and miles hadn't talked since. i haven't told anyone what happened. not even diana. i couldn't tell them how hopeless it made me feel. the way miles had just discarded me like a broken piece of glass when chris had called.

i wish he knew what i was going to ask. maybe then he wouldn't have gotten mad. maybe he wouldn't have even cared, hearing my feelings for him. or maybe he would feel worse hearing them. i've been wondering what would have happened that night if it had gone how i wanted.

"y/n?"

but maybe this was a sign from the universe. maybe we just weren't right for each other. or he wasn't right for me. or i wasn't the one for him.

my brain and heart felt crushed thinking about this, mostly why i hadn't told anyone. i was though, grateful for the fact that miles hadn't said anything either. maybe he was embarrassed that he overreacted. or maybe he felt the need to save me the embarrassment.

"y/n!"

ever since the encounter, there was a new student, gwen stacy. a gorgeous, blonde haired & blue eyed girl.

miles has his eyes set on her now. god how dumb could i have been, why did i think i had a chance with him. he saw me as a friend, and only that. nothing more. he obviously liked girls like her. perfect, cute, and graceful. maybe i was that, maybe i wasn't. all that i knew i wasn't, was the girl he dreamed for.

"hello?? y/n?!"

-the girl he longed for.

"oh my god, Y/N!" i heard diana screaming in my ear, "jesus what the hell?!" i said rubbing my ears in pain. "you zoned out for like a million years!" she said concerned. "seriously what's up with you? you've been off all weekend." king said, the same concern diana has, laced through his words

i looked over at the other side of the table to find nobody. but across at the other lunch table sitting? , miles and gwen. i sighed in disappointment, forgetting i wasn't alone as the two immediately noticed what was wrong, shit.

"oh my god." diana said. i shot my head up confused until she said, "did that bitch reject you for her?!" she said fuming with anger before looking at me with saddened eyes. "what- n- well not-... i don't know."

"oh damn i'm sorry y/n, i was sure he liked you." king said as diana nodded her head in agreement. i could feel the water forming in the corners of my eyes, but i couldn't break down here. not in front of everyone, not in front of miles. i already looked weak and brittle enough to him.

"Yeah? well you were obviously wrong!" i yelled, getting the lunch rooms attention accidentally. i scoffed in disbelief as i got up from the table and snatched my bag from the empty seat next to me, the seat once filled by miles.

"i cant do this again. he wants her, fine. but he didn't have to treat me like a fucking piece of shit." i yelled but quietly as i sobbed out of the lunch room, tears streaming down my face, ruining my makeup. i had fought so hard, to hard for my wall to break in front of everyone on earth.

i glared at the boy and then looked at the girl. she was gorgeous. how could i judge him. hell i would choose her too.

"Y/N! Wait!" diana said, attempting to get up and chase after me before being pulled back by king. she felt terrible. it then sank in. she looked over at miles who had already been staring, wondering what had happened

his face filled with fear as diana mouthed to him, "i'm going to fucking kill you." before she rised up, shoving kings arm before chasing after me. king looked at the boy, his face frozen with confusion and fear, with a look saying.