Ellies P.O.V
If I'm honest, I'm not happy that Leah was on my phone. I mean thats not really a good start is it? The start of what, I don't know, but even so. I'll bring it up, but we need to get this talk out the way.
Leah walks back into the bedroom and hands me my tea
"Thanks" I take a sip and smile. I think Leah is still a bit embarrassed that I caught her, she climbs back into bed and sits beside me as we both lean against the headboard.
I take a deep breath "Ready?" I ask
Leah takes a deep breath too "Ready"
"Shall we just go in head first and start at the club?" I ask
"Yeah" Leah looks down
"Right...ok" another big deep breath, lets go. Leah is facing me now. I can do this.
"So, er, when it was just me and you, er, before Lilly turned up...hang on a minute"
"Ellie...breathe" Leah grabs my hand and rubs her thumb across the back of my hand.
"Sorry, I want to go further back than that first. That night I invited you here, when Beth and Viv went on a date night and we erm" I say
"Nearly kissed?" Leah smiles
"Yeah"
"Thank god for that, I thought it was just me who thought we were going to kiss" Leah starts laughing
"Oh no, I definitely wanted to kiss you. And I definitely would have if Beth and Viv didn't come in at that exact moment" I laugh back "But.." I say
Leah's smile disappearing from her face
"Leah, I don't want to hurt you but I need to be honest, from the beginning. This is really hard for me, I don't do this, this is all new to me and if I'm honest I'm still a bit unsure about all of this but I need to just let it all out, without worrying that if I say something will hurt you, I just need to let it all out and then you can do the same and we will just see where that leaves us" I blurt out, Leah is just staring at me.
"I want you to be honest, don't worry if you say something that you think will hurt me, remember, I'm made of the strong stuff" Leah smiles
I smile back and again, take a big deep breath.
"Ok so, as I was saying, I really did want to kiss you but afterwards, I was actually glad we didn't kiss. I was conflicted, I still am. But I was even more so back then, I was feeling all sorts of feelings, new feelings, butterflies even, for fuck sake" I face palm myself
Leah lets out a laugh "Cute" she smiles
"Fuck off" I smirk at her
"Go on" She says softly
"But, I was still adamant that nothing was ever going to happen between us. I loved spending time with you, we talked for hours, we laughed our heads off and I just loved been around you. But...Your my team mate. A promise I made myself, and that meant nothing could ever come of it, yes we flirted and nearly kissed, yes my head was all over the place, but I was still a million percent sure that nothing was going to happen" I sigh
"You say it all in past tense" Leah says
"Yeah, well I'm talking about back then. Plus, its too fucking late now isn't it, after we kissed last night" I laugh
Leah goes shy "Don't get shy on me now" I wink at her "And then, after that these feelings I had, you know the ones I don't get" I pull a sarcastic face
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FanfictionEllie Jones has a big heart, she is feisty and passionate, football is the love of her life but she also loves her family and friends deeply, She would do anything for anyone. She has tons of love to give, but could she give it to someone in a relat...
