𝐻𝐸𝑅 // 𝐵𝐼𝐿𝐿𝐼𝐸 𝐸𝐼𝐿𝐼𝑆𝐻 𝐹𝐴𝑁𝐹𝐼𝐶𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁

HER : 4

billie

"remember your deadline is tonight at midnight, there will be no extensions. i assume you wouldn't be careless if you are in ap biology as it is not an easy course. i look forward to seeing what you have created!" mr john clapped his hands once. he moved on to his laptop and pulled up his powerpoint to start teaching.

emery isn't siting next to me today, she's back in her usual seat next to meave. i kinda thought she'd stay in the same seat for the rest of the term with me, so that was disappointing. i mean if drew was here, i'd also want to sit with her instead of emery, but i have different reason than what i assume emery has. i'm just scared i'm going to say something stupid like i always do and then she'll think i'm weird.

the bell rang, we were dismissed. i hanged back a little bit to text drew where she was and then i saw a new plot going on in her life. hudson walked in, said a casual hi to me and walked out with her after she checked if meave would be okay with it.

i didn't know there was something going on between them. i'm only surprised because i've been constantly with emery for the past week and she never mentioned him or acted giggly around her phone. she seemed very smily from the moment he walked in, it doesn't make sense.

and it's not like i can stop her from perusing him, in fact i'm glad that out of all the boys in the school it's him and not some other asshole. hudson is nice.. i guess. they are not officially a thing, so that's something. i feel so awful wishing that it wouldn't work out but i can feel my body preparing itself for a heart break and i can't have that happen.

"yo? you good? come on, let's get that taco bell of yours." drew stood at the class door, snapping me out of my trans. i grabbed my notebook and fast walked towards her, feeling myself lacking blood in my face. "you look pale, did you eat breakfast?"

"no." i replied.

"well then let's go!" drew walked faster into the parking lot.

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hey look at our bio grade!

no way.
we got a full mark!!

ikkkk
i mean i knew we killed the project
but mr john never grades my stuff well
i feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest

ikr he totally sucks at grading
glad he knows how to teach well tho

we have to celebrate with something

we deserve it
how do you wanna celebrate?

i was thinking maybe let me buy you a
morning burrito tomorrow ik you're obsessed
n you get me some breakfast

alright i like that plan

see in bio tmrw then

you too!

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maybe i'm being dramatic and overthinking it but how would she know if i'm obsessed with burritos if she wasn't watching me? i wasn't completely non existent to her i guess, but she remembered that fact about me. that has to mean something right? i don't want to get myself going tho.

but i liked the way she started the conversation, that means she warming up to me right? she wouldn't have texted me if she didn't at least like me a little bit. i don't mean like in the romantic way here but more so in a platonic friendship way. she's opening up and trusting me. that's better than nothing.