𝐻𝐸𝑅 // 𝐵𝐼𝐿𝐿𝐼𝐸 𝐸𝐼𝐿𝐼𝑆𝐻 𝐹𝐴𝑁𝐹𝐼𝐶𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁

HER : 12

billie

"drew i swear to fucking god if you're not outside in the next five seconds i will leave without you." i tried my best to stay calm.

"shut the fuck up okay. you want me there because you need emotional support when she starts talking about her boyfriend. you can't live without me." i could see her walking through the front yard, heading towards me.

"i don't need your support, i'm fine with her talking about hudson." i replied, she hung up the phone and opened the car door.

"i don't even know why you're insisting on hanging out with her. you're supposed to take this break as a break from her to get over her." she sighed, putting whatever she brought for snacks in the back seat. "don't get me wrong i love that we have plans with her and i love her but billie this can't be good for you. your poor heart it's gonna break into a million pieces, and i'll be the one to help you put the pieces back together."

"look not that you gotta know but i'm hoping that if i keep in contact with her and talk to her. slowly i'll see her as only a friend and not crush i can't get over." i drove away from the house.

"i love how you just said that so confidently, you really think that plan is going to work. that's cute." she laughed at me. "come on i thought you were the smart one here."

"i'm book smart." i blinked.

"i know. everyone thinks you're a fool except for your teachers that know it's just a weird way to mask your inner geniusness i guess. it's so not fair, can't you give me a little of your brains?" drew looked at her reflection in the tiny mirror. "i'm definitely going to need it if i want to impress people that are gonna read my collage essay, i have no idea what to write." she sighed.

"i'll help you out, even though i don't know what to write myself." i offered.

"i know you're so very stressed about everything, but you'll be fine. you'll do great under pressure."

"sure i do great under pressure." i rolled my eyes. "do i need to remind you of all the tragic moments pressure got the best of me? i think you're mixing nervousness and pressure together, drew they are not the same."

"well sorry i was trying to cheer you up." she sighed. "you know i would have much rather had this picnic with zo and our actual friend group and not with meave."

"meave is interesting i know but she emery's friend and you know how emery is with new people. she needs to get comfortable and having her best friend with her is going to ease her. plus i never really got why you don't like her." i frowned my brows, confused.

"first off you're simping way to hard. second off, i don't know i think meave is trying to put on this fake personality that i'm not down for. i don't know there's something about her that i just can't bare." she scrunched up her nose. "i can be around her, i'm not a horrible human being that hates for no reason. just you're gonna catch me giving some looks."

"yeah alright okay." i shook my head.

"so do you know what you're going to do with your feelings? how are you going to make them go away?" she raised a brow. she knows damn well i did not think about letting these feelings go, or make a plan for that matter. "billie you don't want me making a plan do you?"

"no of course not, you're going to have conversion therapy your plan d when all your other plans don't work. i don't want to end up there." i chuckled.

"fuck you." she slapped my arm.

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"you think the water will be cold if i just decided to go in there?" meave asked.