The Fault In Romance

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taehyung's pov: 

I wont lie, I felt quite content with my conversation with goo last week. our conversations have not changed, we both still talk all the time.... non stop. on my side, I am confused. I do like goo but there is something with jungkook that I am finding hard to let go. 

we have not spoken since we talked in the hallway, I wont lie I have been avoiding him a little. trying to make sure I stay away from where ever he normally is. I have asked goo how are things going with his crush and he told me that is still pretty confusing that apparently he is in a weird place at the moment, which he did not elaborate on. 

love can be complicated. it was nice having someone to talk to about it though. goo just listens, lets you vent and complain and then shares his opinion. he is such a good guy, its difficult when your heart is drifting into two places. my feelings are confused. 

all my values and beliefs are really similar to goo, but I dont know jungkook much. I want to get to know him but he is jungkook and I am me. our worlds dont match or collide. 

he is popular, well off, got loads of friends, parties, loud, talkative, confident.

Im shy, quiet, reserved, dont have as many friends, not into social events, im not confident. 

I wont lie I feel like at times I can be my worse enemy, I try to put on this tough persona that I am thick skinned but deep down all I do is overthink. sometimes I feel like that the way that I am is the reason why I wont find love. 

I dont feel like anyone would have feelings for me. I am not confident, I also dont want to change for anyone. 'will anyone like me because of who I am' has been a question on my mind for a very long time.

I was currently at school and the weather was horrible, I was in the library during my free class. I spent the whole time, reading a book that I have been reading a lot lately. its called him by sarina bowen and elle kennedy. 

I am loving it so far, its a love story between two males who play hokey. after the bell went off I packed my things and grabbed my bag, I looked out the window and saw how dark the sky was. the wind was harshly brushing the leaves on the tree's everywhere. 

I watched as students were running to get shelter as it poured down with rain. the hail was so loud, and the small circles looks like it hurts if it were to hit you. 

'this is going to be fun walking to the bus stop' I thought, looking through my bag to see if I have an umbrella. 

"of course I dont have one" I mutter, it looks like all the students left.

I make sure I have everything in my bag as I run out of the library building. I hold tightly onto my bag strap as I run out of the school. I run down the path and I could feel my clothes sticky to my body, my hair was soaked and the wind was so strong. I could not help but too shiver and look around for somewhere that has cover. 

but there was nothing, I cursed and stood in the rain in defeat. It is not like I am going to get wetter then I already am now. I just decided to walk instead of run cause I know if I did run I would fall and look like more of an idiot. 

I wrap my arms around myself to try keep me warm as I continue to walk through the heavy rain. 

I flinch a little when I heard a car horn beep right beside me, when I turn towards the noise I see an expensive looking black car. suddenly the door opens and I see jungkook's face in the drivers seat. 

"taehyung get in" he called out, trying to make his voice louder so I could hear him through the rain. I did not even second guess it and jogged towards the car, getting inside and shutting the door. 

I let out a breath and looked down to see I was getting water all over his car. 

"jungkook I am going to get your car wet" I said, about to get out when he grabbed my hand. 

"no, its fine. it needs a clean anyways" the raven said, I did have a brief look around and the car was spotless. jungkook continued to drive on the road from being by the footpath. 

"are your parents home?" jungkook asked, looking at me when he stopped at a traffic light.  

"yes they are why?" I ask

"jimin and the others are at yoongi's and are coming to mine for dinner. did you wanna come?" the raven asked, his eyes not leaving mine. 

"I dont want to intrude-" I say but was cut off when jungkook shook his head. 

"you could never" he said, soon driving once the light turned green. he headed straight towards his house. all this felt a little like deja vu a little when they pulled into jungkook's home. 

"are your parents home?" I questioned and he shook his head

"another trip, they decided to extend their activities" by the way jungkook said it, it made me feel like he did not hundred percent agree with his parents choices.