The Fault In Romance

20

taehyung's pov:

"tae"

"tae, movie is finished"

"everyone is going to bed now" I heard jungkook whisper against my hair. as soon as I opened my eyes, I closed them straight away. trying to adjust my eyes to the light. I lift my head off his shoulder which was hella comfortable. 

my eyes look towards everyone leaving the cinema, I get up along with jungkook. I headed straight upstairs, and went into the guest room. everyone went to the kitchen to grab water. I still felt very sleepy. 

once I heard all the lights turn off I sat on the bed and scrolled through my phone. smiling when I open up the MINE MESSAGES. 

I thought since I have not spoken to goo in a few days I should see how he is doing.

MINE MESSAGES

bubbleV: hey goo, just wanting to check in to see how you are? also I will bring you a interesting fact today. you cant hum when you pinch your nose. 

goo: that is such a good interesting fact, I definitely just spent that last five minutes trying. I am doing good, so busy with school though. how are you doing? 

bubbleV: really good, quite tired though. all the teachers are starting to give students all these crazy assessments with crazy ass deadlines. 

goo: tell me about it :( I am already so behind. 

bubbleV: #relatable 

even though it was not

bubbleV: how are things going with the person your attracted to?

goo: so far so good, he seems to be opening up to me a little more. we talked a lot today, I think he is coming out of his shell. I would like for him to see me as someone he can trust and come to. how bout you?

bubbleV: that is so sweet, I am glad things are working out. with my situation, it is getting somewhere. I just have so much self doubt that I dont think anyone would actually like me for me. its like I dont think it is possible at all. 

goo: I dont like that you think that way :( I have only known you for a short amount of time but you have so many values, personality that a lot of people would want in a person. especially your humour. 

bubbleV: that is nice of you 2 say. but I dont like that I think this way either. it just happens. I dont know how to control it. 

goo: have you thought about seeing a school counsellor? 

I hummed at the thought, that would not be such a bad idea. 

bubbleV: that is not a bad idea, I will look into that tomorrow. 

bubbleV: i am feeling quiet tired, is it okay if i text you tomorrow 

goo: ofc, let me know how it goes.

I let out a few yawns as I feel goose bumps spread through my legs. I shiver as quickly realise I forgot to get water. I took my phone with me and turned on the torch as I walked downstairs. I quietly made my way to the kitchen to grab my water. 

after filing my glass I took a big sip and shut the fridge. I let out a gasp and jumped back when my eyes landed on luke who was leaning against the other side of the bench. 

"w-what are you doing" I stutter, being in the worse possible situation. I was able to avoid him this whole time. why now. 

"you may have everyone fooled, but you cant fool me" luke says, a smirk appearing on his face as he steps closer. only for me to step back, feeling trapped when my back his the kitchen bench. 

"your a whore taehyung. all you want is attention because of how invisible you are" luke says, my heart clenches at what he is saying. 

"no one will ever like you, no one will fall for you. it is a miracle you have friends. no one wants a shy, insecure partner. why dont you do everyone a favour a kill yourself" that was my last straw as he stepped closer to me, my eyes turned blurry and I bit back the tears that were inching closer to roll down my cheeks. 

"do you get off o-on making people feel s-shit about t-themselves" I ask, looking at him right in the eye as I say so. 

"maybe, the truth always wins in the end. I hope everyday you wake up you question as to why you bother staying on this planet" luke was angry and I was holding back many tears. 

"what is going on here" another voice joined the kitchen, causing me to look at the direction of the voice. only to see ryan standing there, looking between the two of us. 

"n-nothing I was coming to get a d-drink of water" I whisper, soon wiping my cheek before leaving the kitchen. I bit my bottom lip, trying to suppress a sob that was so close to coming out. my chest felt tight and I was having trouble to breath. 

with luke being here, I dont feel safe. I dont want to sleep by myself. I cant go to jimin cause he will be with yoongi. I cover my mouth as I let out a cry, trying to steady my breathing as I walk back to the guest room. 

my eyes land on the room in front of mine and immediately stood in front of it, my hands itch to knock on the door so I do so. I heard shuffling from the other side and as soon as the door opens I see jungkook appear, his eyes squinting as if I had just woken him up.

now I fell guilty.

"tae?" he says, rubbing his eyes before his eyes land on me. 

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authors note: what is something you get anxious over? (for my people who have anxiety <3)