-Stevie-
The next couple of weeks go by just like normal... the new normal, that is.
Lindsey is still a constant in my home, only because I am far from being able to handle Lynley all by myself and his presence is actually very reassuring. I know that I'm safe with him here, which makes it so much easier for me to sleep at night, even if he drives me up the wall almost everyday.
He doesn't like anything, but he especially doesn't doesn't like my relationship with David.
He says I can do better, but I think he just isn't used to seeing me happy with another man. And I don't know if I would even call it being 'happy,' it's more like having a hobby, or just an excuse to get out of the house a couple of hours every week, which is good for anyone.
And it's not like I'm in love with David, because I'm far from it- we've only shared a couple of hugs, but nothing more. It's just easy with him, or maybe I just wish it was... I'm not exactly sure.
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"I packed her bottles in here," I set my hand on the right diaper bag pocket, where four bottles are neatly tucked in. "I also packed lots of onesies and lots of-"
"Stevie, I've got it." Karen holds up her hand, silencing me and my craziness.
"Just make sure you rock her to sleep and she really likes it when I sing to her." I add, hoping and praying that the baby actually falls asleep for her tonight... the chances are slim.
"Right," she isn't overly enthusiastic, probably because she knows I'm just overreacting. "Where's Lindsey?" She lets out a yawn, pulling the bag her way to get ready to leave with my granddaughter.
"He just left to go to his condo for the weekend." I'm thankful he decided to go his own way for a couple of nights.
I know we won't be getting along forever, especially if we have no time apart... Time away has always done us wonders.
"Oh," she raises an eyebrow, giving me a silly smirk. "What are you doing tonight?" She pokes my side lightly, which causes me to giggle.
"I'm going to the movies with David." I give her a shrug, because it really isn't all that exciting- it's just something normal old people do together.
"Are you finally gonna kiss him?" She bites her lower lip, still grinning.
"Karen," I let out a deep sigh, rolling my eyes.
"It's time, Stevie." She slides off of the stool, taking the bag and the notepad that I filled out with very descriptive notes on what to do with the baby and how to go about caring for her... I am very nervous about this whole being away from her thing.
"It's really not," I don't know why I'm so scared to open up to David a little more, because I know I should.
I know that I should be able to kiss him properly, because we've been seeing each other for a couple of weeks now and I do like him- even if he isn't necessarily my type. He's a little too bright for my personality, but that doesn't make him a bad person, no matter how Lindsey describes him.
"Let him in," Karen remarks as she leads the way into the foyer, where Lynley is waiting in her car seat.
"Oh, I love you, baby." I ignore her as I bend down to give the baby kisses and tickles. "Have fun," I tell her as I pick myself back up.
"I'll see you later," Karen juggles the car seat, the diaper bag, and her purse as she trails out the front door of my home.
"Don't drop my granddaughter, please." I sigh once again, certain that this weekend of alone time isn't going to go as I had hoped it would.
