The Future: Specials

Chapter 4

Mikells POV

I opened my eyes and looked around. For a split second I couldn't remember what had happened the day before,but then I remembered everything. The kidnapping, me being shot, and Lena trying to save me. What burned hot in my thoughts, was what Tilar said to me. She said she would trade spots with me if she could. I haven't taken my mind off of those words. For some reason they had just stuck with me. I don't know why and maybe I didn't want to.

I slowly and painfully sat up. Pain shot through my body and I immediately regretted my decision.

I was in some room. My guess was the infirmary. Beds lined the wall and a few people lay on them. Most of them looked worse than I did. I wondered what happened to them. How were they here though? I then remembered one of the mystery guys words, ' you'll find out in time what you're doing here.' Maybe this wasn't just a kidnapping.

" Guys! Mikell is awake!" Shouted Tonya in the doorway. She ran to me and stopped at my bed. " How are you?" She asked taking my hand. Her touch was light and gentle.

" I'm good. Thanks for asking." I replied smiling.

" I'm really happy you're okay. You don't even know my reaction when they told me what happened." She told me letting my hand go and rubbing her forehead. I noticed she had a bruise there.

" What happened to your head?" I asked reaching to touch her skin.

She pulled away and smiled apologetically. " It's nothing. Just a mishap." She laughed it off and looked at my injury. Just as she was about to open her mouth Tilar and Lena bounded in here and stopped at my bed.

" Thank God you are okay." Tilar told me leaning in for a hug. She pulled back just as Lena started talking.

" I was so worried about you."Lena said. I didn't understand at first, but then I realized they must have meant when I passed out. As soon as I got in the building I felt faint and then I don't know what happened after that.

" Well, I'm okay now. So you guys don't have to worry."

They shook their heads and looked at each other.

" Mikell." Tilar said.

" Honey." Lena said.

" You know we can't do that." Tonya told me.

I laughed at them. I don't quite understand girls and their constant worrying all of the time.

" Where's Danielle?" I asked them suddenly realizing he was missing from the group.

" He's busy."

I nodded and began twiddling with my thumbs. I felt awkward and vulnerable. I'm supposed to look out for them not the other way around. I didn't want to be seen like this. This isn't how it's supposed to be.

" Mikell." Tilar told me. I looked up at her. As if on cue, Lena and Tonya walked away.

" What?"

" I've been, uh, meaning to tell you something." She nervously scratched her head and looked away.

" You can tell me anything." I said oblivious.

" Look, Mikell." She paused for a second and was probably debating on whether or not to finish what she was gonna say.

" Just tell me." I demanded.

" Do you like me?" She asked straight forward. I didn't know what she meant by that. Did I like her as a friend or more than that? I was going to reply saying ' yes I think i love you', but instead I said:

" What do you mean?"

She sighed. " I mean, do you like me as more than a friend?"

Oh. That's what she meant. I couldn't say no because that would be a lie, but I couldn't say yes because.... I know the first time I say I love her I'm gonna loose her.

" Yes." Her eyes lit up and I quickly began to speak again. " But Tilar, we can't be anything more than friends." I tried to soften the blow by giving her an apologetic smile.

She nodded her head. " Okay. That's fine. I see." She tried to shake the news off. " I actually have something I need to, uh, do. So I'll see you.. when ever." She turned on her heel and began to walk away.

" Wait, Tilar." I called. She waved a hand at me and said,

" Bye Mikell." And she walked out of the door not looking back at me once.

I felt terrible for saying what I did. I love her. I love her a lot. I just.... Can't let her know that. What if something happened to me? How would she live? Or the other way around. Too late now. She was hurt now and it was my fault.

I spent the rest of the day replaying her words and starring at the ceiling. Regretting every being here.

Tilar's POV

I buried my face in my pillow and cried. I hate guys. Why did they have to act like that? Why? I realize girls can be complicated and overly sensitive, but damn, guys can be a pain in your rear sometimes.

I turned over on my back and looked at the ceiling. If only he knew how much I loved him. Ever since we were sent away to that God awful place I've started to see who he really was. Even though there are less stars in his eyes and he's not as optimistic he still had a spark. A spark that could start a fire. He had no idea how special he was to me.

I needed him like a ship needs a sail.