♡︎Doukaza, Kokudou, Kokudoukaza ONESHOTS! ♡︎

I Can Treat You Better

I haven't gotten my period this month, I think I might be pregnant 🥰
Akadou to Kokudou (kind of)
Angst to fluff
Flashback text
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The blond sat on his pillow like throne, reminding himself why he was now single every second. He wanted to love his boyfriend, but he was incapable of ever feeling emotions that he had yearned for.

Once he met that beautiful pink haired man he began to accept the fact he couldn't experience emotions, because he was still loved nonetheless. Or atleast that's what he had thought.

"My love, please just grant me one more chance! I'll feel emotions someday!"

The younger was on his knees, pleading to not be left alone yet again. He looked pathetic, but that was not his worry at the moment. He needed that man, without him he wouldn't know what to do with himself.

"How are you so sure? I've been with you for decades and you have yet to express love." The pink haired man yelled, looking down at the pathetic being who was on his knees.

The rainbow eyed demon averted his gaze, looking at the floor feeling stupid. He wasn't sure if he could experience love, nor any other emotions, like sadness, or anger. "I don't know, I'm sorry." He mumbled, he received a chuckle from the man above him.

"Sorry won't do anything, I need someone who can actually love me, it sounds shitty but I just cannot be with someone like you." He replied to the pathetic demon below him, he pitied the blond, he knew deep down it wasn't his fault.

"Akaza, please. I may not be able to feel emotions, but I still take care of you! I bathe you, I bring you food, I take you to events, and I help you train to get more powerful! If there is more that you wish from me I'll do it! Please, don't leave me.."

The striped male's eyes softened, looking deep into the dull rainbow eyes. He shook his head slowly, "We'll both be happier like this."

"I promise I can do better, just give me one more chance and I can give you what you truly desire!" The blond pleaded, he couldn't just take no for an answer, the older man was the only one who had made him feel protected.

"This doesn't have to be harder than it already is, Douma. I know it's hard to let go, but you can always find another person to take care of."

"But I want to take care of you! I can't live without you..You're the only person that has made me feel something close to love." He said, "I'm sorry but I just can't. It's not your fault, Douma. But I need someone who feels emotions, I can't just sleep knowing that my boyfriend doesn't actually love me."

"But if I could I would love you!" He protested, "How would you know? What if you hate me?" The older man said. "I just know, I don't take care of any random person!"

"Just let me go!"

"You're right, I apologize. I hope you're happier like this." The blond said, watching the pink haired male walk out on him.

'If I could, I would love him.' Douma thought to himself, sighing as the next follower walked into his room.

The blond would kill to feel emotions again. He wasn't always like this, he used to be so full of life, so pure, and filled with emotion.

He was so innocent, he loved his parents, he cried when he was yelled at, he was mad when he didn't get his way. That was until he had to listen to the problems that the people in his cult had.