i just want everyone i know to make one long list
of everything that's wrong with me
why every guy doesn't want me
why i'm not good enough
i want to know every single fucking thing
written down
1 through 100
bullet pointed
so that way
at least i know what's fucking wrong with me
and i don't have to sit here and suffer the question why
cause at least then i'll know what's wrong with me
i'm so sick of myself
of this reality
i want a break from it
i want to be in my dr so bad
but i think something's wrong with me
i know i have the potential to do it
but i think something is wrong with my consciousness
because bitch will not leave this reality
and my brain won't shut the fuck up
i just want to be with them
why can't i
why can't i just have one thing
why does everything have to suck for me
i don't understand
i know i don't try all the time
but when i do
i try so damn hard
and i wake up here
in this bitch ass place
so then i try to enjoy it
i try to get into relationships
work on myself
but i know i'll always belong somewhere else
and i won't ever fucking go
because i'm so fucked up
i think that's why the universe made sure i knew abt it
so it could dangle it in front of my fucking face
and make fun of me for being such a weak bitch
YOU ARE READING
words i'll never say
Poetrydon't read this its probably very triggering i shouldn't publish it but i think it'll make me feel a bit better it's shit too it's not a poem or anything just my thoughts when i'm freaking out over nothing
