how is this better
i don't understand
i'm so sick of being unloved
uncared for
last pick
not really picked at all to be honest
i have never felt more alone in my life
so unloved
i just wanted to make you happy
make you feel loved
and i thought you wanted that for me too
but i'm not enough
i'm not good enough
not pretty enough
not funny enough
i'm not worth it
which hurts so much
i wish you were still almost mine
like it was before
i want you back so bad
please
no one ever has made me feel the way you made me feel
and then you took it away
and i feel so worthless
i'll never stop comparing myself to her
every time i see a picture of her
i break a little more inside
which isn't your problem but still
i can't look at instagram or snapchat or tiktok
without being reminded how i'm not her
how i'm not enough
you'll never want to come to my basketball games
never want to watch a scary movie with me
never want to hold my hand
you'll never want to talk to me again
you told me you loved talking to me
i don't even know what to say anymore
i miss you
so much
i miss being liked
i miss the potential of being loved
being happy
going to your games
the idea of us
it's all gone
i'll never have it back
ever
i'm afraid no one will ever like me again
i've lost my chance
ruined it
why does love and relationships have to be so rare to me
i don't get it
i don't
why do i have to be so alone
and sad
constantly
i don't understand what i did to deserve it
i don't do anything
i just lay in bed and watch tiktok
and sometimes hang out with my friends
and hear abt their relationships
YOU ARE READING
words i'll never say
Puisidon't read this its probably very triggering i shouldn't publish it but i think it'll make me feel a bit better it's shit too it's not a poem or anything just my thoughts when i'm freaking out over nothing
