when will life finally get good?
i find myself asking this every time i think i've hit the bottom
somehow when things get low
life always knows how to go lower
is this karma
i don't understand
is it because i don't pray
i don't understand
i just want things to be normal in a good way
i'm so fucking depressed again
so sad
unmotivated
sick and tired of life
relapsed in my little fucking cat scratches i think is self harm
i just don't know what to do anymore
i'm tired of sticking it out
i don't know what i want
what to do
i just want to go to sleep and never wake up
karma
universe
god
whoever the fuck is or isn't there
please
please
if you want to do something for me doing some good small things or whatever
just kill me in my sleep
because i'm tired of this shit
every time i have a little shimmer of happy and fun
you just got to ruin it
so please do me a solid
just put me to rest
i cant do this
i go through so much and too much with nothing to show for it
please
i just want to close my eyes
and sleep
and do nothing
feel nothing
please
just end it
i've done enough
seen enough
hurt enough people
experienced enough
no one will be mad
just put me to rest
tonight
please
i'm sick of life
YOU ARE READING
words i'll never say
Poesiedon't read this its probably very triggering i shouldn't publish it but i think it'll make me feel a bit better it's shit too it's not a poem or anything just my thoughts when i'm freaking out over nothing
