i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm not enough
i'm sorry for whoever hurt you
i'm sorry
i want to help you
but your hurting me
it's not your fault
i'm not mad
but i'm not okay like this
crying almost every day
because your not sure if you can date again
i don't want to loose you
because i really really like you
and i want to love you
and make you happy
but i can't do that if you don't let me
i'm sorry
im trying so hard to be patient
to be okay with being ignored
or at least feeling ignored
im sorry
i cant leave
i can't stay
i don't want to hurt you
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
god i just wish this was easier
that we hung out all the time
that we could date
and do art together
watch scary movies
you meet my mother
teach me how to play soccer
why can't you let me in
i want to be here
i'm not her
i want to talk
and help you
and hug you
god
i want to hug you
and make you laugh
and paint your nails
and talk to you
really talk to you
not just about your day
about everything and anything
or nothing at all
i want to facetime sometimes
and call you when i'm sad
and hug you until my tears are all gone
i want to give you everything
i want you to want that too
and i want you to miss me
like i miss you
just a little bit
i don't want to upset you
i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm not her
i wish i was too
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
YOU ARE READING
words i'll never say
Poesiadon't read this its probably very triggering i shouldn't publish it but i think it'll make me feel a bit better it's shit too it's not a poem or anything just my thoughts when i'm freaking out over nothing
