i'm sorry
i'm sorry i'm not her
i wish i was
so i could fix you
and be with you
and be beautiful
and be together
i'm sorry
i mean it
i'm sorry
i wish i was
maybe i'd be enough
it hurts so much
i'm so tired of not being enough
i'm not enough
i try
but i don't try hard enough
everyone wants more
needs more
but i don't have anything left to give
to anyone
i just want to be enough for once for someone
please
why
why am i not good enough
i don't know what i did
someone please tell me
list everything wrong with me please
everything i need to fix
just be honest
i'll do it
just so i can feel wanted again
to feel enough again
please
i need someone to
even if it hurts me
just tell me i'll do it
i'm tired of not being enough
i'm not good enough at basketball
not aggressive enough
i don't work hard enough
i don't hustle enough
i don't want it enough
my art will never be good enough
not for my expectations
not to be great
i'm not pretty enough
i'm too tall
not thick enough
not strong enough
i'm too sensitive
those are just my opinions mostly
things i've observed
why am i not enough for him
for my coach
for my mom
for anyone
i'm tired
maybe if i was her i'd be pretty enough
smart enough
kind enough
funny enough
good enough
friendly enough
i want a hug
please
i'm so alone
i'm gonna lose everyone because i can't keep it together
please
please don't leave me
please
but if you do
do it now
get it over with
i don't want to wait another week if feeling like this
please
please
please call me
and ask for my address
call me when your here
and hold me in your arms
tell me it's okay
i'm okay
please
please
tell me none of this is real
please
please
please hug me again
please
make me feel wanted please let it be you
help me please
please
i don't think anyone ever has held me like that
i feel pathetic
and unlovable
what is wrong with me
tell me
please
please
YOU ARE READING
words i'll never say
Poetrydon't read this its probably very triggering i shouldn't publish it but i think it'll make me feel a bit better it's shit too it's not a poem or anything just my thoughts when i'm freaking out over nothing
