Supernatural Imagines

Cloud Angels

(Castiel)

HELLO EVERYONE! GUESS WHO'S BACK?

(Tbh, that kinda made me feel like Daniel Howell...Just a bit)

So yeah, hello everyone! This one has been sitting in my drafts for a while and I don't think I've written another imagine for Cas lately. I need to show my babe some love. This is one that I wrote a while ago so I guess it deserves some love.

TRIGGER WARNING.
MAY INCLUDE:

-MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION
-POSSIBLE MENTIONS OF SUICIDE

Please, if this may trigger any of you in way, I'm sorry. This is not my intention and most of my writing comes from experiences and the heart. I'm sorry if this hurts any of you. 

Strap yourself in, it's a long one.

Life was never how I wanted it turn out to be. Despite how much I hated normality, it was something I craved desperately.

Hunting was something that gave me a routine. Research, fight, possibly get hurt, kill the monster, celebrate with some amazing dessert, crash, repeat.

After I got involved the Winchester's, my life became a whole lot more interesting. Hunting became more interesting. I met new people and new things that I never would have met on my own.

I made more memories than I ever would have alone, but not all of them where great.

I laughed more, cried more, and I certain got stabbed more. I guess in the unspoken contract that I agreed to with the universe, living with the Winchester's came with a price. Sometimes that price could be a bigger target, or the depression that came with hunting. I couldn't save everyone, and some days it harder than others. 

I never minded paying it. Being able to live with two boys that accepted me into their family was worth it. I was never meant to be alone again. They understood what I was going through, and I could never ask for more. 

But soon two boys turned to three, and that's when the days hit the top of the interesting charts. Castiel was a strange being, but it didn't make me love him any less. His confusion with the world, but his compassion to learn everything in it drew me in. The more time we spent together, the more human he seemed to become.

I began to slowly fall in love with Castiel. I knew the consequences of my actions, and I knew that there was a bigger chance that I would end up heartbroken, but it was worth the pain to feel. He was the most amazing thing I had met in my life, and even through all the shit that came with him, I never once regretted meeting him. 

For years I had gone through life feeling barely nothing at all, so for once, I took these feelings that I had and ran with it. I accepted the love I had for him and no matter how many times my head screamed that I wouldn't be good enough, or I didn't look good enough, I always held that love close. Even to not be loved back by him would be worth the pain. He showed me so much that I could never take him for granted. 

Today like any other sunny day, I was sitting outside watching the clouds. This routine had always helped quiet my mind, and it was easier to go into my own little world and leave behind the world of monsters for a bit.

I was just trying to decide whether the cloud looked like the scarecrow from Howls Moving Castle or a deformed spider when I heard the outer bunker door open. Looking over, I saw Cas standing outside looking around. When he spotted me a few feet away, he made his way towards me, a tight expression on his face.