I run down a corridor my dress blowing around my legs and tears stream from my eyes, I push open a door to what I think is A&E. I pass multiple cubicles as I continue to run, getting flashes of people in pain, blood stained doctors running from patient to patient, people crying and shouting. I can't deal with all of this after finding out I could be dying. I run through the double doors and out of the emergency room; finally some silence. The silence is like a slap in the face, I'm alone with my thoughts and fears. My breathing is rapid as my mind tries to comprehend everything that's going on. "So I'm not dead but I'm not alive, that doesn't make sense." I think aloud as I slide down a cold wall until I hit the floor.
"Not everything makes sense Anna." That voice it's a teenagers voice, but wait that name, no one calls me Anna except for...
I look up to be met with the one person I actually want to see right now. "Keeva?" Her long brown hair just like mine, except she had dad's brown eyes, although they brought me more comfort than dad's ever did. Even though I was 11 when I last saw her, she looks just like I remember, but like she did before she got sick again, back when things were happy.
"Hey Anna, long time no see." That smile, I missed it so much. The lump in my throat was getting even more painful to hold onto.
My mind is even more scrambled now, the sister I was made to save but couldn't was standing in front of me. Tears start to flow from my eyes faster and heavier than before. "I'm so sorry Keeva." All of a sudden I feel like a little girl again, stuck in the hospital with Keeva and Niamh, playing tricks on the doctors and nurses as we waited for Keeva to get better.
"Oh Anna, you have no reason to be sorry." Keeva's eyes are so sympathetic, that smile, it's so soothing just how I remembered it when I was a child. She would smile and hug me whenever I got upset. It was always Keeva and Niamh who would calm me down, never mum or dad.
"I was meant to save you but I couldn't." I manage to say over my aching throat as I fail to hold back my emotions.
"Oh my sweet baby sister, we've talked about this before." My mind jumps back to when we found out Keeva's cancer had returned and that there was nothing we could do. "And what did I say then?"
"You said that no matter what happens, you love me and you'll always be with me."
"And what else?"
"That it wasn't my fault, that it was just one of those things that happened. You said that I had saved you for years and you could never thank me enough but that God just really wanted to have one of your special hugs."
"I remember you crying over that, saying that only you and Niamh were allowed those hugs."
"I miss you so much Keeva, you and Niamh were always the ones that would make me feel better. I would never crawl into bed with mum and dad on stormy nights, I would wake you and Niamh up and we would get into your bed. Even after you died Niamh would always look after me."
"I know, she was the one who told Uncle Kieran and Ryan about what dad was doing to you." I close my eyes, unable to go down that path again.
"Don't Keeva, please." I open my eyes, needing to see that reassuring smile again but it isn't there, Keeva isn't there anymore. "No wait, please come back, Keeva please." I hope and wish she would come back but she doesn't, there was no one there. Once again I was alone, but then I remembered someone else that could make all my problems somehow go away. Spencer and he was face to face with Alan.
I begin to run once again towards where I saw Spencer and Alan through the window. I reach the main entrance to the hospital just in time to see Spencer, Alan, Garcia and Cruz walking in through the door. Spencer is covered in blood, my blood, he must have tried to stop the bleeding because it's all over his hands and his shirt. "Spencer, oh my God Spencer" I see tears in his eyes that he's trying to hold back but it's clear to see he's been crying for a while, was he blaming himself for this. "Oh baby." I just want to hug him, let him know I'm still here. His fists are clenched, so much so that his knuckles are white under the redness of my blood covering his hands. My guess is that he's fighting the temptation to punch Alan.
"What are you doing here?" I turn to see Alan looking angry, not upset that I was hurt but angry that Spencer was here.
"My friend was shot, all of us are here waiting to see how she is. Do you have a problem with that?" Spencer spits back, he's upset and now he has to fight back all the built up anger he has against Alan.
"Yeah actually I do." Alan snaps back, taking a step forward but Cruz interjects before a full blown fight breaks out.
"Let's just calm down. Reid how is she, is there any word?" Cruz is the voice of reason. I can see Garcia looking at Spencer with such a look of sorrow in her eyes.
"Hey I'm not dead yet, well at least I don't think I am." I can't help but try to lighten the mood even though I know they can't hear me. It's my default setting to cheer people up.
"There's no word from the theater yet." Spencer's voice is blunt he's focusing all his energy on not killing Alan.
"What happened out there?" Garcia's voice sounds as if she's trying to hold back tears, the black patches under his eyes tells me that she's been worrying so much that she hasn't had time to fix her normally perfect make up.
"We were after the kidnapper, he killed a little boy and kidnapped another little girl as ransom for drug money. Long story short, we trapped the kidnappers in a cabin but they started shooting as cover for the main unsub to flee with the little girl, Alannah noticed them fleeing into the forest, and she followed them before any of us could stop him. We heard a gunshot as we were apprehending the last of the shooters. We ran to see what happened only to see Alannah lying there and the unsub had a gun to the little girl's head. He ended up shooting himself." Well at least I finally know what happened to me thanks to Spencer.
"So the son of a bitch is dead." Alan states with little emotion.
"Well that one is." Oh Spencer why did you say that? Alan takes the comment the way that Spencer meant it to be taken.
Alan grabs hold of Spencer's shirt and pushes him back until his back collides with the wall. "Let him go!" I scream as if Alan could actually hear me.
"What was that meant to mean you little shit?" Alan snaps,
"Macy let Reid go now, before I'm forced to arrest you." Cruz's voice is forceful, but I know that this would only enrage Alan even more.
"Not until he tells me what he meant." There's rage in Alan's eyes. Normally I would say Alan could kill Spencer but right now Spencer has even more rage in his eyes, he could kill Alan and I'm not sure he would care. I didn't know this side of Spencer existed.
"I just meant that there are lots of sons of bitches out there, this is just one less. Although probability would suggest that for every one that dies or is killed there will be more being born every minute. Lucky for us because sons of bitches are our main source of income." I can't help but laugh a little at Spencer's turn around for that comment. Although Alan seems even more annoyed as his grip on Spencer's shirt tightens.
"Ok I don't know what you lot care about, but me, I wanna go see how my friend is doing." Garcia sounds like the mother of the group as she breaks up the fighting.
"You might want to hurry back then." Hotch's voice catches all of our attention as he walks towards us from the elevator.
"What do you mean?" Spencer's voice is full of worry.
"The doctors say there has been some complications on the operating table, that's all I know." Spencer is the first to take off after Hotch's words, almost knocking Alan down as he pushes him away and takes off. I run to keep up with Spencer, I've never seen him so worried. I can't help but feel touched by his concern while being worried about this so called complication. I wasn't ready to die, not yet, there's so much I wanna do. If I make it out of this alive, I know the number one thing I'm doing, putting Alan behind bars for life so that Spencer and I can have the life we both want.
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Chasing Happiness: Volume 2: Yours Always (Criminal Minds: Spencer Reid Fanfic)
Fanfiction*Carried on from Chasing Happiness* Spencer and Alannah have never has it easy. From the moment they met there was instant chemistry between the two geniuses. They tried to fight their feeling for as long as they could but they couldn't fight their...
