Chasing Happiness: Volume 2: Yours Always (Criminal Minds: Spencer Reid Fanfic)

Part 33

"Alan's mother should be here in ten minutes. Anderson is bringing her in, he's trying to get a read from her, find out how much she knows." Hotch informs me.

"Are you sure you want me to go in? She might close up if she sees me." I try to get out of this, knowing that my mind isn't working properly as if I wasn't scared enough for Spencer, now I was scared that I was going to mess this up as well.

"She knows you, as long as she doesn't know about the affair you might be able to play the concerened girlfriend and find out where he might be."

"I'll try, but what do I do if she freezes me out?"

"I'll step in, don't worry, if anything goes wrong I'll be there for you."

"I know you will be." I sigh as I think over what I am going to say to Alan's mum.

A knock at the door startles me "Come in Anderson."

Anderson walks into the round table room. "Mrs Macy is in the interview room." Anderson says.

"What did you find out from her?" Hotch asks.

"She doesn't know anything about the affair or the baby. Alan hasn't been in touch with her for the past few months, as far as she knows you and Alan are still happy together." Anderson informs us.

"Thanks Anderson." Hotch says, Anderson nods before leaving.

"You know what you're doing?"

Hotch asks me, I have to take a moment before answering. "Yeah, I think so." 

"Let's go then." Hotch leads me to the interview room, he stops at the door leading into the room, "You'll be fine, just remember what I told you and she should open up to you."

"I'll try." I take a breath to compose my thoughts before going into the room.

The door opening catches her attention making her look up, her face drops when she sees me. "Really? They had to send you in didn't they?"

I look at Mrs Macy, trying to figure out what way to approach her. "I know you don't like me Mrs Macy, but I need your help to find Alan."

"Why so you can lock him up like his brother?"

"What Mark did was wrong and so was what Alan did but he can't be allowed to get away with what he did." I take a seat at the opposite side of the table, setting Alan's file down on the table. "This is what your son has been doing." I lift pictures of Alan's victims out and place them down on the desk.

"I don't want to see these." Mrs Macy says turning her head away from the pictures as she sits back in the seat.

"I'm sorry, I really am, I hated seeing them as well, I love Alan, we were starting a family."

The comment catches Mrs Macy's attention making her eyes shot to my direction again. "What do you mean you were starting a family?"

"He wanted to wait until we told you, but I guess you deserve to know now. I'm pregnant."

Mrs Macy's looks as if I just slapped her. "You're pregnant?"

"Yeah, just over a month; she's a little fighter, she held on when I got shot while on a case with the team."

"She?" Mrs Macy whispers, her eyes filleing with tears.

"Well I don't know for sure but I have a feeling it's a little girl. I don't want him to go to jail, I need him, we need him; but he has to answer for what he did to those innocent women."

"I don't know where he is." Mrs Macy finally starts to open up.

"You might not know for sure, but you could have an idea where he's hiding. He's still in the city, he's scared and he has one of my team hostage, is there anywhere that means a lot to him, somewhere he would hide out until everything calms down?"

"I... I don't know."

"You do Mrs Macy, there's somewhere that means a lot to him, and somewhere he used to go when everything got to him."

"My dad's old diner, he used to go there if his dad's anger got too much for him to handle."

"What do you mean?"

"His dad use to beat us, I tried to take most of it for the boys sake but they still got the brunt of it."

"His dad beat you, he knew the pain you went through yet he still carried it on."

Hotch walks in, knowing that I was about to lose it. "Alannah we have a location."

"What do you mean he carried it on?" Mrs Macy asks.

"He beat me, he raped me and he treated me like his own personal slave when I was at home with him. I would pray for a case so that I would get away from him. Do you know how hard that is, wanting someone to get hurt or killed just so that I could get away from that bastard that you brought into this world? I hate myself for that." Tears start to flow from my eyes, my temper bubbling over.

"He hurt you?" It's as though Mrs Macy can't comprehend the idea of Alan hurting me.

"This is what he did to me." I throw the pictures of what he did to me onto the table, causing her to look away in disgust once again. "Then when he couldn't take his anger out on me he would take it out on innocent women who reminded him of me. That's what you created."

"Well you're carrying his child, she's going to be just as bad."

"Lucky she's not his then isn't it?" It feels good to tell her the truth.

"Wait, you lied?" Mrs Macy looks hurt and confused.

"Yeah, the BAU Agent that Alan has hostage is the father and he's going to be a hundred times better than Alan could ever be." I didn't realise how hurt Mrs Macy was until her hand collides with my face. Hotch jumps forward and restrains her. My hand reaches to my check where she slapped me, I can taste the blood in my mouth from the attack.

"You little bitch, you cheated on Alan then lied to me to find out where he's hiding. How could you do this to Alan?" she shouts at me, I look at her with a look that could kill.

"How could I do this to Alan? How could he do this to me?" I lift one of the pictures of the abuse he put me through and hold it in front of her face, forcing her to look as Hotch still has hold of her. "He's just like his dad, worse in fact because he killed those poor girls. You brought two monsters into this world, I hope you never get these images out of your head."

Before I lose it all together I run out of the room and make it to the bathroom before breaking down in tears. How didn't I know those things about Alan? We were together for years and I never knew these things. How was I meant to do this job, be a mother and a girlfriend when I didn't notice these things. Maybe Spencer and our baby would be better off without me.