doomed

Chapter 9

Chapter 9
I had told Lyric every detail of what happened, well maybe not everything. I left out the parts where I considered actually giving into his games.

Not that he had really started any yet. I mean he didn't walk in the room fucking knowing I was inside.

He just probably knew it was empty all the time and that's why he chose it. It had nothing to do with me.

Lyric, obviously was very surprised by it. She hated Evan though, so anyone else was a better option for her. I didn't completely disagree.

Sometimes I hated him too, sometimes I wanted to leave and sometimes I even did. We had broken up at least 10 times over the last year but we always found our way back to each other. Wasn't that a sign?

If the universe wanted us divided so badly why were we so hung up on the other? Because we were meant to be.

Beneath all the fighting and slapping and shouting in each others face there was love. Pure love. We were just two different people and it was normal to fight like we did.

Every couple had their argumentations and how could we not? We were completely different. And I liked it that way. How boring would it be if he was the same as me. Or would it?

I needed to stop thinking about stuff like this. The whole Kiernan thing brought me out of my mind. I love Evan. And there was nothing bad about our relationship.

After Friday I would have my straight mind again. Wanting only him and no one else. No Kiernan Alvaro Kingston and especially not his cocky side.
He would not get what he wanted. Not this time.

Pulling myself back to Lyric and into reality was a Little hard but I made it work. She had just reentered the room with a bag of homemade cookies.

Her parents had a cafe downstairs where they sold their homemade goods like cake or muffins and cookies. You could brunch there or get bagels in the mornings. Drink coffee and read a book or study in the back, between hundreds of books and with the smell of fresh coffee in your nose.

I loved the cafe, everything was so good. I had tried each item atleast 3 times and they always brought stuff over for my family when they would try something new; especially when it went wrong. I loved her family just as much as mine.

Her mom was russian and her dad from france, they had immigrated after running away when they were 20. Vera had just found out she was pregnant with Lyric and they quickly decided to get out her parents house.

They wouldn't have liked the idea of them getting a baby. In new york they build up the cafe and worked their asses off by taking on 2 jobs each. Just so that now they could live a good life and didn't need to worry about just having the cafe.

They were also so gorgeous, both of them. Explained Lyric being a complete goddess. If we lived in another universe, both lesbians, we would definitely be together. Ly was bi though so she had kissed a few girlies before. I wasn't one of them.

If I thought about it deeper I was glad I wasn't. She would have broken my heart in millions of pieces and I would have needed a whole new one just to exist.

I took one of the cookies enjoying them as they were still warm and fresh. „Thank you" „no problem" Ly sat back down and looked at me.

„So what are you gonna do?" „about Kiernan?" she nod, also enjoying the cookie.
„Probably nothing. I hope he's gonna leave me alone. I mean he seemed to have found a new girl, maybe she can distract him." „or not"

I took a big bite. I needed that for real. He was fucking with my mental, I couldn't want him. Why would I even? He's not that special. He just looks angelic, has style, is tall, has a pretty smile, gorgeous lips, speaks spanish and talks to me like I'm his girlfriend or something. Which to make it clear, I did not want to be.

„Yeah or not"
„I would love to be in your shoes honestly because I would immediately take him. Fuck Evan for real you know I hate him."
„I know, can we not talk about that?"
„It's my favorite thing to do, talk shit about him."
„Oh believe me. I know."
She grinned proudly, clearly admitting to it.

„after friday everything will be perfect again."
„Sure live in your little bubble Cass"

I frowned at her and ate the last corner of my cookie. „You're terrible"

„No you are. You're choosing a piece of literal garbage over him. He's fucking rich too. He's so perfect!"

„You're overreacting."

„No you are underreacting."

„Whatever let's talk about your boy problems."
„I don't have boy problems, I have a sweet and kind boy that actually wants me and doesn't just wanna fuck. Because that's exactly what Evan wants. He's always there when it's about sex you noticed? And what happens when you're done? Ohh a fight. What a surprise."

I took a deep breath. I hated that she didn't like him. It made me unsure in my decisions. „He loves me and I love him."

„Believe me if this is love, then I have been in heaven 20 times today." weird reference.

„can we please stop?" „sure let's talk about other, more positive subjects, he's ruining my mood while not even being in the room with us."
Just deep breaths Cass. It's alright.

„when do we start decorating friday?"
„8 am, there's no school on friday so that more people will be able to help and the rest have time to prepare themselves."

I needed to prepare myself too, internally especially. Would he be there?
It didn't matter. Because I was there with Evan. As I chose to be. Because I loved him. End of the discussion.

„I'll pick you up at 7.30 okay?"
I nod. „thank you" „no worries."

My phone made a buzz and I checked it. „Let me guess, Cassie can u come over? I miss you baby"
„No."
„What t-" „why is your face so weird?"
I kept staring at the phone, trying to blink away the follow request I had just received.

„K1ernan.kngs requested to follow you."

I read it out loud, not believing my own words. Lyric jumped off the bed screaming. „THAT'S PERFECT! Ahhh"

I deleted the request. I could not let this happen. Evan would be heart broken if he found out. There was nothing between me and Kiernan. He was just some hot dude that was desperate to push his ego. And I was not in for it.

„Take it! You need to accept Cassie PLEASE"

„I deleted it" i mumbled tapping on his account.

Lyric started yelling at me as I scrolled through his stories and posts. He was gorgeous.