doomed

Chapter 50

TW
The end of this chapter has sexual content, if you don't want to read it just skip that part it's not essential to the storyline.
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He had been there the next day.

It all went way different than what I had imagined it to. I could have thought that maybe he ignores me, that maybe he fights with me, that he comes over and slaps me or that he's kind and sweet trying to get me back.

None of that appeared.

He simply had a different girl by his side.

I first saw them when I was walking to the toilet in first break. Lyric, Kiernan, Blue and me were all sitting at our usual table as me and Ly went to the toilet.
Kiernan offered to come with us as he had seen Evan earlier but being alone with Ly was something I hadn't often the chance to do so how could I deny that.

Then when we were about to enter the bathroom I heard a girl giggle and then his voice.

I immediately let the door shut again and turned to Lyric as if I had seen a ghost.

She was clearly aware of who was inside the room across the door and took my hand as we walked around the corner. We waited a moment, sitting at the edge of the wall trying to see if anyone was coming out.

Then just a second later he was holding the girls hand and kissing her as they walked outside, her skirt caught in her tight and revealing her whole ass. I wish I could have given her a sign about it but if she would see me he would too and I couldn't afford that.

It was creepy though, his hand was resting on the other cheek, clearly aware of the skirt.
He was such a terrible person really.

Me and Lyric just stared at them as they walked away from us.

Then I turned to her and tried to realize the situation I had just witnessed.

"You know her?" "I think I've seen her before yeah." I nodded in agreement. Probably one of the cheerleaders as she had a shirt of theirs.
I didn't know how to feel about it all. Somehow I was happy he had just moved on and taken some other girl but then I was also worried for her.

He had nothing good to offer, nothing except the fake sweetness of getting to know him.

I wish I could help her somehow but what was there even to do. I mean I could say what he had done but then again, who would believe it.
He was popular and acted nice most of the time.

People looked up to him and his role in school wasn't some unknown jerk you could easily tell bad stuff about.

I didn't want to get myself in a position to be so vulnerable about people hating on me and calling me a liar. I wasn't ready for it either.

Maybe some day I could speak all of it out loud but as of right now to have told Lyric and Kiernan was enough for myself. I hadn't fully digested what happened and not fully accepted it all so how could I convince anyone else that I wasn't lying.

When I wasn't one hundred percent sure of the things he had done with me and to me myself.

If I was ever going to speak out about it then I needed to be in complete clarity with the situation and my experiences with him.
Also I hadn't been a dream girlfriend either, it wasn't like I hadn't cheated on him too and done stuff I shouldn't have.

It didn't excuse his behavior in any way and the things he had done to Lyvia were way more terrible than what I had experienced but that was also not my story to tell. It was Kiernans and he had clearly decided against telling anyone.