doomed

Chapter 39

I had continued getting ready, suddenly being overly motivated to get drunk to an extreme extent and stop all those emotions and feelings from  jumping up on me.

Why had I yelled at him so excessively. Of course it hadn't been right what he had done and obviously he shouldn't have asked me to lie for him but then again, what other way was there?

It didn't seem like he was overly proud of anything he had done, rather like he regretted it. Maybe not even that but he definitely knew I didn't like it by the way he had told me.

So maybe if I hadn't freaked out on him we could have talked further and I would have understood his side and he mine and we could have figured something out but I guess all of the "We" was gone now anyway.

I walked into the empty kitchen and climbed up a shelf to reach the little liquor bottles we had left from Sylvester.

I took two with me in my room, already sipping on one before I was even back inside.

They tasted like absolute trash, I almost gagged but I had finished my whole makeup so throwing up would just be a waste of product.

I took the last sip and pushed the tiny bottle deep in my trashcan.

Lyric called me up, saying she was there in ten minutes. My cue to start changing.

I had already picked out what I would wear; a black tight corsette top with red flowers on the bra lace, a black skirt with a tiny red heart on the side. Tights that went up to above my knees and ended in a pretty lace. For shoes my doc martens because I needed at least one warm thing in my outfit and I had finally walked them in so would be a shame not to wear.

For the jacket I simply took my leather one as it matched pretty well with the style and didn't hide too much of the outfit.

When I was finally done changing Lyric also texted me that she stood outside; perfect timing.

I ext the second bottle and pushed my phone in my pocket before grabbing the single housekey I had lying around my room.

She sat next to Blue who was smiling at her and waving at me.

I waved back and got inside, wrapping my arms around the Passenger seat from the back. "Hi bubu" Lyric held onto both my arms and placed a kiss on my hand. I grinned at Blue who was looking down at his arms disappointed. "Aw no worries" she let go of mine and placed a kiss on his.

"Cassie you're ready?"

I had no motivation to mention what had just happened, they would wander off fucking somewhere anyway. I could just get wasted in peace and talk to a random stranger I would never see again telling them about all my problems.

Maybe we were even going to a house with a pool and I could try to drown myself in February.  Or maybe not.

"Yep I'm ready." "Good let's go!" Blue continued driving and Lyric turned the music louder. Luckily Blue wasn't too picky with what played in his car so we could listen to whatever we wanted. Not like he had any saying in general.

When it was the three of us in the car he mostly just drove and we talked, sang and screamed. Poor guy.

We arrived at the party later than we usually did, somehow we had all taken a lot longer today. It was already 1am and the house was FULL.

We walked inside and I immediately turned my way to the kitchen while they walked further in the garden to smoke one, weird people. It was fucking freezing.

I took one of the cups and filled it with raspberry Bacardi and some fruit juice I found in the fridge, sounded horrible and didn't really taste good but absolutely did the job.