After

Susannahs anniversary

(Not good at math and years shit like this so you will bare with me on these times use your imagination k)

No one's pov
It's been around 10 years since Susannah past away it gets easier some days are harder then others. Today is the anniversary of when we all said goodbye to her the kids Anna, ruby, Austin, Harry they never got to meet a wonderul soul all they get are the stories about her
Today was hard for the adults especially the boys so it was to either let them be just let them take there time. Belly and Conrad was finishing getting ready in there room when Jeremiah walked in
"You guys ready" he asked as they both nodded
They walked downstairs to go outside which had a table full
Of food and drinks, John and Adam was stood by the barbecue grilling food for them whilst Laurel was talking to the kids and belly, Steven, Jeremiah and Conrad stood looking as Laurel looked up towards them
"Come on guys" she said as the group smiled faintly
Conrad and Jeremiah went over to the pool and sat down dangling there feet in the pool

Conrad's pov
"I miss her" Jeremiah announced
"I miss her too, it's been 10 years and it still doesn't feel any easier"
"I get it" he said as ruby ram over to sit in my lap
"Heyyy rubesss" Jeremiah said and he monkey rubbed the top of rubys head
"Uncle jere" she squealed
"Mum would be proud of you Connie. Of both of us." He said as we sat watching everything that was going on
After a while of sitting there ruby fell asleep in my arms as my dad came over and sat with me and jere
"Hey boys" he said
"Hi dad" me and Jeremiah replied
"Your mum would've loved today, how you holding up" he asked
"Better then I can be" I said as Jeremiah added "I mean I don't know just feels weird"
"I get it she would be so proud of you both for coming this far in life without her"
"Thanks dad" I sad as he patted our backs before standing up
I don't think I realised at first but I began to cry. I don't cry not infront of people anyways I handed  ruby to Jeremiah who I think noticed as I ran to mine and Bellys room and that's when it happened I began having a panic attack. My breathing quickening I couldn't hear the door open but I felt the bed next to me move
"Conrad it's belly it's okay"
"Just breathe Conrad" all I could hear was my heart thumping
"Con" she said as she grabbed my hand I looked at her as she placed my hand on her chest
"Listen to my heart you can feel it follow my breathing"
"Be- bells" I said faintly
"It's okay don't talk just breathe okay"
Once my breathing came back I rested my head in her chest as I cried I let it all out
"It's okay just let it out Connie"
"I miss her so much belly" I cried
"I know it's okay"
"I wish it was me and not her"
"Hey" she said pushing me up
"Look at me Conrad" she said as she pulled my face to look at her
"We all wish it was us and not her but your still here two amazing kids and a big family and we aren't going anywhere"
"I need her belly I need my mum" I cried
"I know" she said as she pulled me back to her arms as I kept crying "it's gonna be okay"
"Do you want to come back out or stay here" I didn't reply I just stayed silent
"Okay you get in to bed I'll go get you food" she said as she kissed my head

Bellys pov
I hate seeing Conrad so upset
I left him in the room as he passed out from crying once I got back outside I had tear drops all over my shirt I just decided I'd get food quickly and take it to him
"Where's Connie" Jeremiah asked with Steven next to him
"He went to bed I think today just brought it back for all
Of us he just couldn't handle it" I said as they both nodded
"Did he have a panick attack I saw him run out" Steven asked
"Y- yea he did but he's okay now I'm just gonna take this food to him" I replied as I walked away
"Your good to him bells" Jeremiah announced
"Thankyou Jere"

Once I got back to the room
I knocked once and then walked in
"I got you food" I said as he slowly sat up tears staining his face
"Thanks" he said as I began to leave
"Stay" he said as I turned around
"Just stay" he said as I walked to my side of the bed and got under the sheets Conrad layed his head down on my stomach with his arm draped over me
"Belly"
"Yea con"
"Please never leave me" he said as I stroked his hair"
"I will never leave you"
"Promise Me belly"
"I promise" after a while we heard a knock
"Come in" is said as Conrad moved abit but still
Layed on my stomach
"Can we join" jeremiha asked with Steven
"Of course" I said as Jeremiah and Steven jumped on the bed as we all layed together close up as it was a small bed
"Guys your all squishing me" I shrieked as they all chuckled these were the moments we needed as we all was together just like we was little again I think we fell asleep because I woke up to my mum, my dad and Adam all taking photos of us asleep
"Our Angels" my mum spoke quietly

This is how there sleeping
But Conrad is on Bellys stomach in the middle of the bed and Jeremiah and Steven cuddled up next to them

Once they left I decided just to stay where I was I mean it's not like I can move even if I wanted to I have three bodies holding me down I could hear faint snores from all of them like Susannah said "take care of him" I'm not only looking after him I'm looking after all of them there my comfort and I'm there's this house is my comfort place with the boys