After

Seeking help

Tw mention of self harm

Bellys pov
Everyone was over having our classic meal and chill night my mum, Jeremiah, Steven and Taylor hell even sky and Julia came Anne and ruby hung out abit till they and I quote "got bored"

"Hey bells can we talk" Jeremiah asked me
"Of course" I said as we walked to the sunroom where no one was

"What's up" I asked
"It's Anna"
"What about her"
"I'll just show you the messages but she's hurting herself badly she told me not to tell you but I mean she's the daughter of my best friend and brother I have to say something"

"Can you show Me"
"Of course"

Anna and Jeremiah

A: jere can I talk to you about something

J: of course

A: you can't tell my parents no one promise me

J: depends on what it is

A: Ermm

J: take your time

A: I hurt myself like badly multiple times and I can't stop, I feel free and I'm scared of myself jere

J: you have to tell your parents

A: I can't

J: Anna there your parents

A: no

J: Anna

A: no, I shouldn't of told you I'm sorry.

J: Anna
Read 9:05pm
End of messages

"Oh my god" I said shocked at what I read

"Im sorry bells"
"Thankyou for telling me" I said I don't know do I be angry sad
"It no problem like I said I have to she the daughter of my brother and best friend I would want someone to tell me of it was my daughter"

"I'll tell con tommorow he's had enough go on at work with his patients"
"I get it" he said as he hugged me before we walked back out to join everyone. As much as I wanted to be angry I just couldn't.

The next day Conrad was already up and downstairs I was about to head down when I saw Anna's room open I walked over and knocked
"Come in" she said
"Hey bug" I said calmly
"Hey"
"I need you to be honest with me okay" I said how am I supposed to ask this if my daughter is basically killing herself
"Okay" she said uneasy
"Have you been-" I gulped
"Have you been hurting yourself" i asked
"No"
"Don't lie to me Anna"
"Im not lying" she said raising her voice
"Don't lie it only makes things worse" I also said shouting which caught Conrad's attention from downstairs as he entered the room

"What's with the shouting" he asked
"Ask your daughter" I said refusing to look at her
"What do you mean"
"Belly"
"Anna"
"I was gonna tell you later but jere told me-"
"YOUR LYING HES LYING STOP YOUR BOTH LYING" Anna said screaming

"What did he say" Conrad asked
"She's been cutting herself I guess and jere didn't wanna keep it from us
"YOUR FUCKING LYING YOU BITCH" Anna screamed

"WATCH YOUR FUCKING LANGUAGE TO YOUR MUM" Conrad also screamed as ruby was heard crying I walked out to go calm her down as Conrad was left as I heard the door slam and the shouting continue

Conrad's pov
(This is gonna get very deep so please if you feel uneasy at any point please skip this part)

once belly left I slammed the door scaring Anna, my anger taking over me

"SHOW ME" I screamed
"THERES NOTHING TO SHOW MUM AND JEREMIAH ARE LYING" she screamed back I don't know why I was even this mad
"ANNA BECK FISHER ROLL UP YOUR FUCKING SLEVES BEFORE I DO IT MYSELF" as I stepped closer

"FINE"
"YOU WANT TO SEE" she screamed as she rolled her sleeves up showing her cuts hiding her legs under her blanket as she stood up a innocent body I made and raised was now covered in blood and cuts
"WHAT THE FUCK ANNA"
"HAPPY NOW IM SORRY IM NOT YOUR PERFECT DAUGHTER LIKE RUBY OKAY IM SORRY IM JUST FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD LIKE EVERYONE TELLS ME" I wanted to leave get out of here I couldn't look any longer
"THIS WHAT YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF"
I walked out as she followed me her cuts showing as we made it downstairs belly saw as she bursted out crying
"LOOK WHAT YOUVE DONE LOOK AT YOU MUM ANNA LOOK" I screamed as Anna looked over

Ruby got scared like she didn't recognise her sister as she ran upstairs
"FUCK SAKE ANNA" I said as I walked over to belly to grab her tightly
"OF ALL PEOPLE YOU TOLD JERE HE HAS HIS OWN SHIT YOU THOUGHT DOING THIS SHIT HELPS WITH THE PAIN RIGHT CAUSES US PAIN ALL OF US NOT JUST ME AND YOUR MUM" I burst out
"Im sorry" she said as she turned around

"Do you really want to leave us"
"No" she said as belly walked away probably to go to ruby and take her to the beach
"Fucking hell I can't deal with this right now"
"Dad"
"Anna, please stop okay go to your room clean yourself up"

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