After

Make it stop hurting

Anna's pov

However, it had been months since the break up I still miss him, his smile, his tanned skin he was the one boy I trusted to show my body too, we never had sex but we did other stuff I showed my body to him and still he takes time to bully me tell people about it like it was a joke.

I was sitting in the living room my mum and ruby had gone out it was just me and my dad watching tv
"Dad have you ever used mum for her body" he looked at me suprised but shocked
"Never" "why do you ask" he said
"I shouldn't but how do I stop missing somone I showed my body to"
"U had sex" he asked disgusted
"No he wanted to stay virgin but I showed him my body and I keep replaying the night me and him shared and it's hard to let go of him" I said tears brimming my eyes
"Maybe you should talk to him ask if you regret it that's a way to start closure"
"I can't dad, his family hate me him, his sisters I'm banned from being near them, his sister would beat the hell out of me and plus he hates me to" I said as he pulled me to hug him
"Oh Anna first love his hard I know it will get better" he said as he rubbed my back in circles
"When"
"I'm not sure but soon I promise"

After a while I sat back in my room there was times I contemplated doing it again, self harming but I couldn't let them down like that again it would hurt them more then it would hurt me and I just couldn't do that to them.

All I could do was cry I layed down and just cried. After a while I hear my mum walk in
"Hey Anna" she said as she got in laying beside me as he arm draped over me as I cried more
"It hurts mum, make it stop"
"I know it does baby" she said as she held me we both fell asleep like that I never new how heartbreak felt but this really hurt and changed my whole perspective on people

I woke up around 5 I was alone my mum must've left and went back to go sleep with dad, I got up and left for the bathroom when I looked in the mirror all I saw was a disgusting person, when he was probably happy, and moving on with some other girl. I decided to just go sit out by the pool and watch the sun rise

Time flew by because next thing I saw was my dad walking out the house to get his surf board
"What are you doing Anna"
"Couldn't sleep"
"What's up" he said as he sat beside me
"It's been 3 hours since I last cried"
"Look, I know it's hard An but I promise it will be better"
"When, when does it get better"
"I'm not sure"
"It feels like someone is standing on my chest it hurts and feel numb"
"I know I felt that too but you'll find someone better" he said before standing up
"I love you bug"
"I love you too dad" I said before he went of to the beach
I walked back inside and got back in to bed again all I could hear was the sound of the ocean

My thought was interrupted by a messaged coming through contact Id was his mum

Jane: HOW FUCKING DARE YOU ACT LIKE A SLUT TOWARDS MY SUN YOU WAIT YOU HAVE SOME SUPRISES COMING YOUR WAY HOPE YOU ENJOY GETTING TOLD OF BY YOUR DAD

Before I had any chance to reply my dad bursted in my room my mum not far behind trying to call him down
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING"
"What"
"CALLING HIS SISTER UP THREATING HER"
"I didn't"
"Cut the innocent bullsshit"
"I don't know what your talking about"
"If the cops end up at our door you can talk it's crossed a line now Anna you know that family your putting us all at risk"

"I'm sorry"
"I can't even keep apologising to them fuck sake" he said and he walked out my mum trailing behind as I layed down and cried again

Later that evening I hear my dad on the phone to his parents there was a lot of shouting and then it was my turn as my dad still faced with a lot of anger as he sat with me as they spoke

A: im sorry

J: that don't cut it Anna first it was calling him now threatening his sister

A: that wasn't me

J: I don't care, if we see you I can't stop his sisters from having you it's out of my control now

My dad took the phone and apologised again ending the call before speaking
"I don't know what to do now Anna, fuck sake" he said then slamming the door I was lost was I scared to leave now yes but I had to it was our annual bonfire and that meant Steven and jere would come down and Nicole and Gigi they would all watch for me Incase anything happened