After

Fixing our problmes

Bellys pov
Once I woke up I forgot where I was what Happened then it all came back to me when knocks came to my door
"Hey bells" Taylor say running to me as I cried in to her shoulder again
"Let it out cinderbelly it's okay"
"I can't leave him Taylor"
"No one is asking you too u just need to talk"
"I'll send him in if u want"

"No not yet I wanna do it when I'm ready" "of course" once I was dressed and ready Anna and Taylor had left the house meaning it was just me and Conrad
I got downstairs I saw him there he was I don't know what to do I mean he kinda cheated on me just like Jeremiah did "Conrad"
"Hey what's up"
"Let's talk" I said in a uncomfortable voice
"Sure"
"I don't want to break up with you or a divorce-"
"Neither do I belly I didn't mean to kiss that girl it just happened"
"But there it is, it doesn't just happen Conrad"
"Right I know"
"Do you even love me"
"Of course I love you belly"
"How would you feel if it was me and Jeremiah"
"Don't you bring him up in this"
"Tell me how would you feel"
"Like shit, because I lost you"
"Would you stay with me"
"Probably not no"
"And I'm trying to stay because I'm doing it for Anne she deserves both her parents that love her not like Adam or my parents"
"We aren't like them"
"Adam cheated on Susannah while she was doing chemo Conrad"
"I know he did but I'm not like him"
"I never said you was"
"Yes you did and you don't get to bring up my mum or her cancer because I lost her belly"
"Yea I lost Susannah too not just you I had to also watch her everyday slip away dying while I felt selfish because I can't be there how do I feel I wrecked her sons while she was dying I was out here breaking there hearts" belly said shouting and crying
"Belly"
"No, I can't believe you would say I can't be sad over her death"
"I didn't mean it like that"
"Then how did you mean it"
"I just mean"
"No I get it she wasn't my mum she was just the women who let me in her house right" I said as I got up to leave
"Belly you know that not what I mean just sit back down"
"Go away Conrad"
"I'm not leaving you belly" he stated
"Fine then don't" I said as I got closer to the stairs him following me
"Look I'm sorry I shouldn't of brought up my mum and u shouldn't of brought up Jeremiah we need to sort this out this isn't healthy" he said looking at me

"This isn't us Conrad you kissed that girl you fucked up" I said as I began crying
"I know I'm sorry"
"I just need a while to think okay"
"For sure" "and I love you bells" "love you to"

Few hours later Anne came home Conrad had left
"Mummy mummy where's daddy" "he's gone out he should be back soon baby" I said uncertain if he will come back
Belly and Anna sat down and watched tv the rest of the night till Anna got tired
"I want to sweep with you mummy" she said tiredly
"Okay" belly walked up to Conrad's room and layed down with her there "I love you mummy" "I love you to baby"
"You won't leave me will you mummy" "of course I won't I'll never leave you" I replied as we both closed our eyes falling asleep

Conrad's pov
I left. Not forever just needed air I fucked up I get it I know, I went home around 4am belly and Anna was fast asleep in my bed I decided just to sleep downstairs I didn't feel like sleeping in the the other room
I don't know how to fix this it's hard I love belly and the kiss it meant nothing obviously.

The next day I got up and made breakfast as I heard little feet running down the stairs
"Daddy you came back" she did as she hugged my leg
"I'll always come back baby" I said placing her on the island
"Why did you leave" she said "me and mummy had a argument" I replied as I finished making her food

"What did you do" "I hurt mummy" "why" "I kissed a girl that wasn't mummy and she's upset"

"Do you love her" "I love mummy and I love you" "then why don't you kiss and make up" "it doesn't work like that I'm afraid baby" "oh" "are you going to break up" she said almost crying as tears brim her eyelids "of course not we love eachother baby" "don't leave me daddy" she said hugging me as if I could leave any minute "I will never leave you baby"

I felt bad I mean my own daughter was scared I'd leave
After a while belly came from around the corner smiling but not a smile like she was happy no this smile was a tired half smile she was defeated
"How are you bells" "I'm good"
"I'm sorry" I said as I continued "please can we put this behind us I love you and I never want to hurt you or Anne " "I know and I love you too yea past is the last we can't change it sorry about last night" she said "don't be sorry we said what we said"
"Your breakfast awaits" I said as I pulled he to the table
"Mummy daddy said he loved you" Anna said as she giggled
"Oh did he now" belly smiled
"Yea but I love you more then he does" she smiled at both of us then filling her mouth with food again
As I placed a kiss on Bellys head we was gonna be okay we always will we are belly and Conrad