Her Second Chance

Chapter 6

17 August(Saturday)

Alex's POV

It's been 2 days, since my amazing experience with the gorgeous Luke O' Connor.What an amazing experience indeed. I really am still pissed at him for assuming things about me, and although they're true I didnt need it out in the open,because it makes it all the more real.Still I can't help but smile.He really is so sexy, and he kisses soooo well.I literally get chills just thinking about it.But that was two days ago and I don't plan on repeating those events.I must be thankful though, atleast I had the chance to kiss again,more like being kised again.I hadn't planned on it happening.Ever.I programmed myself to not expect kisses, and hugs.  Actually no  intimacy what so ever. That's how it was going to be. That's how it was for me with Todd. It's so strange that, Todd ignored me for so long, and then he said I was useless when I couldn't give him what he wanted,  but I understand now. I had lost my passion. He expected me to be the one to initiate sex. He just wanted sex. He never want to love. So it became a norm. He made me feel so useless. Now all that has changed overnight, and I don't know how to deal with it. All I know is that no matter how good Luke kisses or hugs.I don't need it.I dont him or anyone for that matter. He's going to also think I'm useless,  and I lack passion.  He will realise I lack sex appeal. I don't need that in my life. One guy treating me like dirt is all my heart can handle. I don't want to jeapordise my heart for anything. Not ever.

Friday came a little too quick, and I was a little emotional having had to see Josh off to camp.Jen was there as well, so I felt a little better.That was only yesterday, but I miss my Joshy already.After we dropped the kids off Jen and I went to breakfast.We started chatting about Cole,and the reason why he wasn't at the boys send off.I discovered that the guys spend alot of their time in studio writing and just jamming. It's funny how the conversation steered to Luke.It turns out Jen knows Luke quiet well. So I  decided to pry a little not wanting to make it obvious or be inquisitive.I just wanted a little more insight about Luke. She didnt mind though, and she just rambled on explaining a lot.

" Most of Luke's relationships didn't last long Alex.The break ups were initiated by his exes which left Luke heart broken.Atleast he got inspiration for his songs from those break ups.The last break up was really devastating, they had been dating for 3 years.She, his ex just wanted Luke around more, but he couldn't. He gave her the best. She just wanted more and more, and wasnt willing to sacrifice anything.His life as a star doesn't allow that Alex.Thats how it is.Luke really loved her though, and she broke his heart.We thought he wouldn't get over it, but he did.He always jokes about it.Just after the breakup, his wallet got stolen, and he didnt didnt report it, because he said the thief spent more than his ex.He really is such an amazing guy Alex.He's just been unlucky in love.You must know keeping a relationship as a star is hard work.I know what it feels, because it was very difficult for Cole and I, but we made it.It just takes a lot of hard work, understanding, and most importantly love"

After that I decided to reveal what happened on Thursday.

"He kissed me Jen." I blurt out. "And I didnt stop him.Well I did, but not at first.But yes Luke and I kissed."

"Oh my Fucking hell." She smiles with her eyes huge."You'll kissed.So he wasnt kidding when he mentioned he feel...."she says more to herself than to me.

I wondered what she was going to say, but just pushed the thought away.She just continued speaking.

"He must really feel something for you Alex.Luke O' Connor does not do such things. He's very focused, and he takes relationships seriously.I know for a fact, if he didnt feel something for you, he wouldn't have kissed you? How do you feel Alex? She asks looking deeply into my eyes.